what can i do

i am tired.

5000 words for forex dealing report
currently : 3,892 words
due: 30th April - which is tomorrow!!

and this is not my only assignment
there are six more to be done in two weeks
heavy workload :( and stress


yet, i have a rough night
having my heart ache for hours
distracted by my emo
tear dropping silently and feeling lost
i don't know what to do, to get things right
i don't know how it went so wrong
it never happened, not even in my dream
but i know
i am sad that this happened
i am worried that the love will be gone
i am regretting for the happiness may not stay
i am angry for not being there
and worst of all, there is nothing i can do about it
yet trying to fix it with love

p.s i love you

argh.

monday
raining + strong wind
feel like winter but current season : autumn

that's today.

i hate the humidity
my clothes are still feeling wet
after two days hanging indoor
:(

i hate bad news
especially on monday
and today we've got one
!!!!! swine flu !!!!!

first the global economy crisis
now this potentially killer of million virus
from pig to human
then, human to human
what the heck is wrong with ...
world? god? you? me? them?
i don't know what to put in that sentence

god bless everyone.
by god, i don't mean me is christian
me is not (",)

BUT

i ♥ monday
pet society update new toys for miumiu (my pet)
and my once a week yoga class

i ♥ yoga
but i really want to try pole dancing

shut up. i am not a bitch.

i am not pole-dancer-wannabe
simply because it can firm up my arm
and keep my body in shape
i think
but mama and papa gave a big cross for it
so, there you are ms pole dance
you're being dump into my bin

arghh.
it's freezing here
i want hot chocolate
i feel warm just thinking of it
:)
maybe i should grab one
tomorrow morning before financial planning


that's all for today
i need to sleep for at least 9 hours

good night, adieu

susan boyle

this post is for my beloved sister
i don't understand how can you not know Susan Boyle
from unemployed church volunteer
to overnight youtube 100million hits
Susan Boyle stunned the world in Britain's Got Talent
within 2 seconds of her singing
everyonemade cataclkysimic error of judgment on her
she'd impressed everyone with her voice
beautifully singing " I Dreamed a Dream "
even simon cowel couldn't hide the shocked face :)

click this!!!
click this!!!
click this!!!



well, now you know we shouldn't be judgemental

anzac day

this is nothing to do with anzac
not like i am going to walk with those folks
but i did had a great evening
we watched a movie - paul blart : mall cop
i give a three out of five for it
was expecting something more hilarious
anyway, i am looking forward for sandra bullock's
one of the must watch movie in my list


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:)
and i finally uploaded some pics from my phone
so, lets cut my crap and take on some eye candy

southern cross eye

a big big one at dockland
but too bad it's underconstruction

we had dinner at TGI-Friday

honestly, i like those stuff hanging up there

look at those red leaves
me likey autumn !

isn't this tree having the coolest top ever

oh well. is me and my boyfriend *duhhh*

i haven't been posting up my face lately

and look how chubby am i

isn't me cute (:

and the self-proclaimed number one

- La Porchetta - the italian

fyi, they sell pizzas, pastas, salads bla bla

that's all for the day

good night.

myers mid sales

okay i admit it
i am a moderate-shopaholic
thank god i am not in shape of cameron
well, if you don't get it
forget about it :)

i love this guy - my boyfriend
he is the one telling me it's myers mid sales week
and kind enough to had brought me to my favourite mall
he certainly not worry me swiping his card
well he knew i won't just burn the cash for no reason
ending up, i spend more than i expected :p
item bought:
1 green winter jacket
1 sleeveless jacket
2 pyjamas set
1 green mickey tee shirt
1 roxy stripes bikini
1 purple missisimo's top
but honestly, i want more !!!
just that my rationale told me i should stop
and i followed. damn.

anyway, before me going back to m'sia for hols
supre is a must go place
need to pick out some nice thing for my sister and friends
you can't get supre in malaysia
so i guess is the best gift you can present your loves in m'sia

wait til i am back darlings!!!!!

Bikini Body

as a daily reader of perezhilton.com

today, i found some inspiration

image copied from www.perezhilton.com

Cameron Diaz, Lindsay Lohan , Tara Reid

ouch.

just look at their body

beautiful boobies, flat abs, nice legs

then

i look at myself

well the top ain't bad

but ...

the shaggy arms

double layer tummy

a bigger than big size ass

and fatter than fat legs

...........

i want flat abs and nice legs

i want hot ass and toned arms

all in a month

possible?

why a month?

because i am going back to Malaysia

because i am going to island

because i am going to swim and sunbathing

because i am going to take pictures

hence,

i can't put myself in bikini with the companion of fats
CANNOT !!!

say Not TOO Much to every meal
say NO to fast food

say Oh C'mon Baby to gym and yoga :)

stupidest headline

its my habit .
first thing i do everyday
beside checking my emails
and my blog
and the rmit student site
and facebook
i spend hours reading news on the news
surprised? don't be !!

anyway, one of the headline for today's
SCIENTIST SAY FATTIES TO BLAME FOR EATING THE WORLD UP
i must say its schmuck and ridiculous
there are few issue been pointed out

• big eaters cause more food production
• major cause of CO2 gas emissions
• heavy bodies compare to "gas guzzlers"

what the fuck are they thinking?
big eaters cause more food production?
productions are there regardless of your size
and fyi,
i know a lot of skinnies are big eater
than those contestant in the biggest loser, you LOSER!!!
its about the metabolisms in you to burn your intake!!!
just because you scientist can't do anything about the environment issue
doesn't give you the right to abuse the obese!!!!

arggh.

that ends today's

good night

busy+weekend =buzeend

someone help me!!
i slept at 2 am and woke up at 10am
well, at least a perfect 8hours sleep
but when i read my week planner
seriously,
i wish to bang my head on wall and go back to sleep
look at this:

Monday: money market dealing research
Tuesday: financial planning test 30%
Wednesday: macroeconomic test 20%
Wednesday: b.i.s research
Thursday: risk management test 5%
Friday: forex dealing report 15%
Saturday: business report assignment 20%
Sunday: united kingdom history research

what a dreadful week !!!!

why must them put all dues in this fucking week
and why must the lightning stroke on my Internet modem
why why why?!!!!!

p.s cheer up my darling Claudia. you know i heart you.

deakin library

i love studying at deakin's library
although it takes 45minutes travel time
but it worth the energy and petrol usage
environment is way better here
there are no cheena people talking out loud (rmit's libary)
i can't bear with any noise when i really need concentration
and deakin libary opened til 10pm
gives me enough time to do whatever i have to

got to go back to my books :)
have a happy weekend!

(o.s but why is my weekend full of readings??!!)

Engaged !

don't be too excited over this title
it's not me switching my status
from in relationship to engaged
but it is a beautiful news i heard
sometimes, i thank facebook
for all those little catch ups
with friends you no longer talk to
is not that you are not friends anymore
is not that you don't care about people you known
is that you don't have common things to talk about
is that you don't know what is going on to that person

sometimes, we just tend to screen out people
not because of their anything
it's just something you do, unintentionally
you screen out those driving away from you
and you add in new friends that's currently in your circle
yet someday, somehow, they will be in someones
but deep down you know
they are your friends, someone once in your circle

*toast to Gwendolyn Liew, the new brides to be*
congratulations!!! i truly feel happy for you to found your love
and the proposal on top of Sydney Harbor Bridge is really cool .

cheers

radiation

woke up fully rested
roy and i went highpoint shopping center
we picked nicolas cage's movie : knowing
but i still want to watch -
1. he's just not into you
2. pink panther 2
3. mall cop
4. marley and me
:) waiting for another week

as for today's pick

i give 3 out of 5ive for this movie
a science fiction film directed by Alex Proyas
it freaks me out in the beginning
the background is kind of creepy
i thought we got the wrong ticket >_<" movie started with flashback of 1959 where a mysterious girl ( so alike with emily rose ) written a series of numbers on paper and put it in the time capsule during school's ceremony she is seriously a scary kid in the movie i mean her action and all however, the series of numbers she wrote ... happened to be turning into happening issues and somehow it relates to nicolas cage's son bla bla bla ... ( go watch yourself ) but the ending is cool !!! sun explosion --> exposing radiation
destroying the planet earth

lol

FUC U

sorry for my vulgarization :(
and sorry that you have to bear with this
but you certainly can click to another link
before i vulgarize my entire entry
and come back some other day .
p.s Happy Easter !!

FUC URSELF!!!! MR SC
YOU******F**ERUGLY**** !!!
IT'S NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY TO CLEAN YOUR ASS!!
I AM HERE TO HELP BUT IT IS NOT MY JOB!!
YOU DIDN'T GIVE ME YOUR FUC-IN NUMBER!
YOU DIDN'T CALL/SMS ME AND TELL ME ABOUT IT!
HOW AM I GOING TO KNOW WHAT TO DO?
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?
WHY IT SOUNDS LIKE I AM THE ONE BEGGING YOU?
DO I REALLY MUST HELP?????

YOU RUIN MY HAPPY EASTER MONDAY!!!!

FUCK!!!!!!!
I GOT MY ASSIGNMENTS!!!
I GOT TESTS COMING UP!!!
I DON'T MIND HELPING YOU!!!
BUT CAN YOU AT LEAST MAKE AN EFFORT ?!
DON'T MAKE ME STAY UP MIDNIGHTS DOING YOUR THING!!
DON'T MAKE ME SOUND LIKE I AM NOT HELPING!!!!



ANGER EXPRESSED BY
GIRL ON ROAD

simple is my style

g'day mate! :)

welcome to this new look!
appreciate my work,
i have been editing for 89minutes.

i am a happy girl now.

however,
one imperfection i found.
i have no idea if anyone is reading my "shyte"
not like it will affects my writing
is just feel good to know someone's reading.
i like to know if people like what i write

"attention seeker!!!" lol

i miss my mei mei , my papa & mama
i miss chicken rice at kota d'sara
i miss dining at grand imperial
i miss trying to be funny at home
i miss malaysia's mc donald

anyway, i'll be back in june.
don't bother asking when,
my answer will be "i don't know"
just be patient, and wait.

love,
girl on road

<3 Easter

have you got any easter egg?
i got my very big FerreroRoche's easter egg
it's from Kammy who i see her as my big sister
and my close friends should know me
when come to chocolate, i only take Ferrero Roche
anyway,
i bought three easter bunny chocolate
the one with a ribbon bell on neck
the chocolate brand ? it's Lindt
but they are not for myself (:

easter bunny living under Sydney Harbour Bridge!!!!
click here to meet them .


until then,
happy holiday!

p.s drive safe . you don't want ending up like this


love
girl on road

black and white

( personal favorite from korea trip 09 )

this is why i love photography .
where you are able to freeze some moment
even some silly one :)
and later on, smile when you see them .


love
girl on road

i love...

i love black and white picture ,
and i don't have to worry colour fading .

i love buying pretty thing ,
that always give me strong feelings .

i love photography ,
capturing my meaningful moment .

i love blogging about my life ,
as i know sometimes we can be forgetful .


love <3
girl on road

fulfilling breakfast

melbourne's weather is beautiful
although the sudden warm and cold is irritating
but it's good to have different feeling
sometimes summer, sometimes winter
most of the time autumn and spring

this is another morning
where my lecture ended before mid-day
roy picked me up at city
and drove us back to kensington
we had breakfast at couplecinos :)


very healthy breakfast : mega breakyy!!

my light meal: BLT sandwich (bacon, lettuce, tomato)

loves
girl on road

back-up

i read something meaningful.

"when you're screwing up,
and nobody says anything anymore,
that means they've given up on you.
you may not want to hear it,
but your critics are often the ones
telling you they still love and care about you,
wanting to make you better "
by Randy Pausch

would like to let my pretty sister understand
our family is one of the most loving i've ever know
and i want her to know
no matter what happen
relationship problems
friendship issues
even pregnancy or raped
you've got your family to back you up
at least, you got your big sister here


loves
girl on road