CHOR SAM

it's my last night in malaysia =(

frankly speaking,

i felt down and unhappy while packing

sure will be missing my parents a lot

and my little sister who's in her teens

it's always not easy to say goodbye

especially to your own family

i feel sorry to have so much time spend with them

i feel awful to leave before uni. reopen

but i'm going to made things up

i promised i'm going to come home right after my final

and we'll go thailand, singapore, hokkaido

afternoon

went to the orphanage at taman megah

it's not my first time here

yet every visit, i felt sorry for the kids

seeing babies with flaws makes my heart ache

i can't help but letting go my tears flow

it's never easy for me to see things like that

after orphanage visit

we went to old folks home too

i like the smiles on their face when angpao given

these reminds me how lucky am i

being healthy, having a loving family

and to make things better,

to finally found someone love and care for me

dinner @ grand imperial with grandma

and yes, they are my family

my sister, and my lover =)

love

girl on road

CHOR E

second day of chinese new year
nothing much to do as all done on first day

woke up later than yesterday
aunt chai lian and family came over mid-day

went for some prayer before pavilion, kl

it's my second time at pav.

i still prefer o.u =)

had j.co glazzy donuts before the walk

it's good but not as good as krispy kreme 's

we went to dr fish

a place where you put your feet and allow fishes do the cleaning

it's hard to interpret the feelings but definitely worth a try

fishes doing some clean up

its a sister thing =)

hunnie's such a wonderful guy

last but not least,

camwhore!!!!!

late night
hunnie and me finally get to watch the whole IP MAN

it's such a good movie

i felt the nerve seeing japanese bullying chinese
honest speaking, i am bad at all this history stuff
not that i know nothing

and i would like to know more

am thinking to rent the 'nanjing murder case' (not sure abt the name)

but hunnie remind me it's cruel yet real story

i couldn't agree more with one of the sentence in it

" ... 武功被濫用成暴力 ..."

love

girl on road

Happy moooooo Year =)

had a very lively "chor yat" - meaning, first day of c.n.y
i always enjoy celebrating with my family and relatives
with all the deco and cheerful smile on everyone
"chor yat" relates to happiness and warm feeling to me
this is the day where everyone get together
the day where we can wear shocking red
without people thinking you're too "over"
the day where i get to see people i truly respects
the day where smiles and laughter are everywhere

this year is very special to me
it's my first time bringing boyfriend into this family event
i'm glad we still hold on to traditional of cny
we're not suppose to wash our hair
we're not allowed to use knife or blade
we're not allowed to have porridge/congee
we're allow to put in money for our poker
these things aren't happening in hong kong much
at least, it's not in my boyfriend's family
but i put on a smile seeing him enjoying these

met uncle 4
we had a very knowledgeable and substantial talk
me and roy were talking to him whole time
i mean, during our dinner at mc donald
i look up to him, and give him my greatest respect
he's the most intelligent uncle among all
and yet, he is so generous in giving us advise
just couldn't wait for the next talking session
where i can learn something from him, again

nevertheless
there's something i wasn't happy about
we were so close, she's right
but who has pull away from my arms
there is no point finding out
from what i see today
she is closer with her
someone i don't like she to be with too much
yet, they are sticking on each other
as her is she's sister
i wonder
who am i to you, my dear?
do you know i care about you?
do you know i am serious about us breaking up?
do you know i am hurt to see you pulling away?
questions remain, answer unobtainable.

last but not least,
a very very very happy and blessedly new year to everyone!


love
girl on road

Firefly

it's been years since i last visit kuala selangor
i can't remember with who i went to the firefly village
but this time, i am with my family, hunnie and his cousins
we are blessed
fireflies are active after rain
and on our way to kuala selangor
heavy rain from above
stopped upon arrival
which gave us great opportunity to see huge bunch of fireflies
firefly only come out in the night
when the sky is brighten by daylight
they are back in the forest for mating
night time is the moment they eat
and eating process the digestion causes their butt to blink
we saw a lot of them
they look as if they are the deco for the tree
christmas tree deco, that's what i mean
we were wondering if they're fake
like for tourist reason people put christmas light
and tell us they are firefly
well, they are real
we see them flying across
and when the 'sampan' drive closer to the tree
you certainly will understand
it's firefly, not light

i appreciate this trip to the firefly village
especially with people i'm close with
on our way home, everyone exhausted
especially my little princess beside me
she was suppose to sleep at that time
instead, she came with us
and i am happy that she came along
although she has to go to school tomorrow
but i think my little sister do enjoy this trip

the family and friends @ firefly village, kuala selangor



love
girl on road

my 21st

thank you !
to those who remembered last night was my big day
please accept my apology to those who're not invited
birthday dinner @ grand imperial
with 30pax of limitation,
i only manage to invite 4friends with their partner
four great friend since i was in 2f3 @ catholic high school
- h.yun, alvin c, weil xuan
we had great memories talk the whole night
recalling how we met, how we get so close
the night was full of memory
and the present =)
can't believe these people gave me a box
full of stuff for my future baby from age 1 to 21
although its not something expensive
but its something from them, and i appreciate
especially when i read those little notes from yun
however, there's still a present FOR ME in the box
a teddy bear necklace from tous
i love it, thank you darlings
andy bought me a scarf and kelvin got me a 320g portable

it's my 21st birthday =)
everyone was expecting a blast
because of my 18th is at the club
however, i disappoint them
i just want people i'm close with to hang out a bit
after all these years
i know who treat me true, who has a heart
especially my family
i really do love them so much
my parents, my sister
still love my brother although that silly forgotten my day
they are gifts to me
furthermore, i have new friend, josephine around too
nevertheless i felt warm and love by my family, and my hunnie =)
thank you daddy, mummy, chelsea baby and hunnie roy

love
girl on road

picture of me, picture of you

here come my favourite cake: tiramisu@alexis

birthday pic with relatives

pretty baby walking down the stairs

the girls of the day: chelsea, sylvia, josephine

age 13, 21, 29

it's my 21st birthday with hun @ grand imperial

sista-brotha hood from 2f3

sparkles always happen in between

my newly born cousin sister from bidor

cousins visit from hong kong @ kayu

love

girl on road

cousin in town

a very good sunday
huns' cousins are in town
woke up early for breakfast @ kayu
first time eating roti tisu
crunchy, sweet & salty in one
anything roti with curry ikan turned out to be delicious
after breakfast, we went batu cave @ gombak
272 steps up to the cave
tiring but manageble
it's not that hard after all =)
we're all young people, sporty too
spending rest of the day at ipoh
food wasn't good like last time
but just a little drop by
and went bidor before heading back to p.j
first time meeting my little cousin baby
so cute that i just want to have my own baby



countdown few hours to my 21st
wonder if people i care remember ...

love
girl on road

singapore's pics of the trip

i love touching these creatures

sand bar =)

i really adore my parents

we respect each other
we talked, we make fun of each other
but deep inside, we know, i heart you

we've been travelling to different places

each destination keep bring us closer together

holding on each other, we know,

there is a long long road ahead and we'll move on, together

and again, at this little space of my own,

i yelled " hun, i love love you, and you love me more "

singapura - singapore

oh well
spend 3 day 2 nights at the neighbour country
not a bad trip after all
night safari is always a good choice for a night out
cut off alcohols, musics, hotties
i do enjoy more in the rain forest
where i feel the environment
i heart the legend -
" it's said that rain forest is holding on the sky
when the rain forest gone, the sky fall "
so it is really important for us to start loving our earth
there is one reason that i adore Hayden p. beside her nice-ness
she is aware of the marine life and standing up for them
she is against dolphin hunting and whales killing
which is really good
despite whether she is using it to boost up her popularity
at least, she has done something for the lives

sentosa island is a great place
love the sun heating from above
love the luge and sky ride
and definitely true for the luge's slogan -
" once is never enough "
i bought their tee shirt =)
its so convenient to travel around the island by the beach tram
the beach is hand-made
but it's pretty, it's attractive
underwater world is very much worth your penny
dolphin lagoon just make me wanna get wet to be kiss by pink dolphins
too little time, too much to do
i'll come back again
very soon, end of the year


love
girl on road

Meetings

i don't do much meetings
but definitely won't miss this one
always happens to turn a dull morning into shining one
can't help to adore my girls from h.e.l.p
they are my Claudia baby, Kelly baby and e ling baby
too bad that Emily went back to oz without a lil catch up
but we still pretty much enjoy our brunch at decanter @d'sara height

Claudia baby pick me and my huns up at my place
and went over to E ling's
then, off we go to d'sara heights to meet Kelly baby
decanter @ d'sara heights is a very nice place
the environment definitely allow us to jump in a warm & comfort zone
food wasn't too bad
but who cares about e.a.t when you're with your bitches?
then we start talking non-stop for the next two hours
not long, but its the moment we all looking forward
its a once a year meeting for the four of us

i enjoy talking to these girls
i treasure them
i adore them

to make the day even better
Claudia baby gave me a bookmark for my 21st
such a loving darling
she know i love reading and bookmark will be my all time useful tool
i really like the bookmark
also, i love the special photo-card
which i was seriously touched and almost turning into cry baby

huns is happy for me
that i have such great friends
where each of us are so different
that we have our own 'ability' to support each other
and, he's right
i have great friends
where we didn't let distance tear our friendship apart

to all my babies,
i love you girls
looking for the next meet up
hopefully, somewhere in ... Paris? LOL


love
girl on road

beautiful weekends

i had a very sporty weekend
started with a companion walk at awana
did i ever mention my parents are golfer?
oh, they are.. and very good player too
went awana with them on saturday morning
such a wonderful day
temperature up there was just fine and loving
chilling with sun shine above
air was fresh and it makes me feel alive
love this kind of sporty outings with my parents

on sunday morning
we went mont kiara for morning walk
little exercise like this give us good health
and it's a very good way to stay in touch with your folks
small talks all the way up and down
i appreciate those moments
too bad my little sister couldn't make it
tried waking her up by calling but failed
that's how crazy our family can be
right next door or upstairs but yet we call each other


picture of the week
its great to find someone who love you,
understand you,
respect you,
take care of you,
spoil you ...
its even better to have someone there
whenever you need to talk, to hold, to "merajuk" with..

love
girl on road

R.E.L.A.T.I.O.N.S.H.I.P

after all this year
after all i've been through
after feeling sweet and pain in several "ship"
i finally starts to learn how to handle a real relationship
love is easy, but ...
being in a relationship & maintaining it is hard
it's more than just " i love you "
it takes everything
from cherish, respect, concern, appreciate, trust
to hate, disappoint, hurt etc.. etc..
there is so much in a relationship
sometimes, it's not just me and you
although most of the time we said love is between two
but there are other parties to be consider
there is a lot to take into account
a strong, mature & loving relationship is powerful
that everything is flowing on naturally
everyone wishing a "..living happily ever after." ending
but frankly speaking, an end is just another beginning
let's face the fact
there is happy day and bitter moments
without both to balance off , we won't appreciate happy day

its beautiful when you found someone
that he's so close to you
willing to do the give and receive
that you are so confidence in yourself as well as him
where you don't have to worry on communication
that you can just talk about practically everything
(except some bitchy titchy gossips *wink*)
and you just enjoy hiding in his arm
with all the little kisses on fore, finger locking on each others
simple gentle hugs with a beautiful grin on face
all this little thing makes you happy all day
so darling,
if one day,
you found someone
don't let go, hold on tight
but don't forget, don't let yourself go
keep you with you, withou you, you got nothing to give

loves
girl on road

to turn out that ...

day after day, month after month
at last, my question is answered
today, i finally understand

my dearest friend,
i am sorry for disregarding your feeling
never thought being in this relationship cause such pain
never meant to hurt or let you felt betrayed
we were so close before but so unfamiliar now
losing contact for months did not mean i forget
i love the way we are
i misses those caring calls and messages
i recall those moments hanging out together
yet, i am such a careless bitch
me apologise for not aware of this situation
anyway, i won't just let go of this bond
although it's weak and fragile
i still have faith on it
you don't know how much you mean to me
being in a relationship doesn't mean i don't care
for all you've done, for all love and care you've showed
i am truly touched, and sincerely appreciate all
yet, you know nothing of this
you don't know how much i care
i am in fear
as being abandon is not what you do
but i am feeling it deep inside
however, it won't stop me from wishing, from hoping
that one day, we'll be like we used to be
we'll hang out at each other's
we'll sing like no body's business
i know, we will.

loves
girl on road

away from home

after spending 11 days with him
he has gone, away from home
never thought i'll tear while sending him off
it's my first time seeing him walking to the immi
frankly speaking,
looking at his back from upper level,
i know i sure will miss him
my "troubling brother" - c.shuhang
two family sending him off
my parents, me, me's boy
cousins, and their parents
end up all females tearing when we gave him huggies




this fella is my childhood best friend
we are all grown up now
but somehow, still being silly and childish in front of others
eg. playing "run and catch" at the living room
we laughed, we sweat, we breath deeply
and admitted we're both older now =)
what a good buddy

hate to admit this but ...
yes, i do love him, and missing him now

loves
girl on road

earth stood still

first movie since 2009 =)

it's been a while since i last be in O.U

still prefer O.U over other mall

somehow, i feel comfortable with it

made reservation for movie a day before

picked 'the day earth stood still' to be first movie in 09

not a bad movie =)

at least i enjoy the caramel pop corn combo, a lot

you have salty popcorn back in melbourne

so i really do appreciate the caramel's

rating for movie " the day earth stood still " [ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ]

took two pictures while walking around =)

loves

girl on road

ladette to lady

woke up early.
drove my sister to school and mom to work.
listen to the radio is the only thing to do while driving
a brainless lady speaking her so-called "australian accent"
oh my god with a big o.m.g.
my next movement is switching to next channel
i wonder how can people stand this kind of dj on air
however, they play good music (=

seeing those secondaries
i can't help but to show a sardonic grin
eager to show their fashion sense
turning school days into fashion week
playing hard to get but showing desperation
apparently, they are stepping into transforming stage
where a once good friend behaving like a bitch
where studies, family, friends are not on the top list
where spending time crying over him happen often
s.i.g.h
sometimes i just can't stand those spoiled brats
bringing hannah montana's into reality
with all the action, accent, attitude
that's just bullshit with extra shit
acting all mature when there's just a big small girl
hey biatch, you don't know the golden rules to be a lady
everyone is a ladette but label themselves lady
just forget about it
with this f*cking ugly attitude
you just can't be

but, enjoy your day bitching about others
as that's what secondaries do (=
kudos

loves
girl on road

resolutions

apparently,
when i clicked links to blogs
2009's resolutions seems to be the "all week favourite"
well, i don't blame the "r-trend"
as it's what people to at the beginning of the year
however, that's not what i am going to do
part of the reason is i don't want to be the follower
another part is that i don't want to set a limit of what i can achieve
i wonder, how far can i go and how good/bad can it be
"well, you still need a guidance," you may say
i can't agree more with that
started to use a planner since zero seven
it's amazing (=
a planner is more down to earth than new year resolutions
it make perfect sense to me
most of the time it's not the matter of what you should do
it's how much can you do

hence, just like the good old years
no resolutions for me
yet, every year i live happily and satisfied in every aspects

loves
girl on road

kiss and talk

oh woman, i changed my skin again
right, after using the previous one for 2 days
reason? non in mind
just simply feel no right about it
i like searching via http://www.blogskins.com/
and this is my pick

countdown 16days to 19th jan
which is my 21st birthday
finally, i can enter to the genting's casino
it's not like i desperately wanna gamble
but i wouldn't mind having a private tour by my parents

some people has been commenting i'm harsh
they refer to my facebook's status
where i stated:
i am serious about deleting those who forget my 21st
i see no reason to keep them if they don't give a damn
actually, i may feel sad about it
but that's one of my goal of the year
screening out who's worth my label of friend
so, honest speaking, i am taking it seriously
stepping into my 20s i realize friend is not just a brand
i look into quality not quantity
what's the point having tons of them
but realizing they don't give a f*ck about you?
that's the reality
small chances of friends forever
when you have it, treasure it sincerely
just like everything on earth
you don't know when is the end of the lifespan
appreciation is the key

loves
girl on road

how i spend my 2nd day

had a very great morning with my honey claud.
it's funny when you're in your 20s.
you don't have to stick with your friends all time or texting/calling too often,
all you need is a very casual meet up for some quality time together.
unlike those 'friends' i had in the past,
where hanging out at some fancy place for hours are needed, i enjoy this little catch ups.

frankly speaking,
i only have few close friends which i seriously considering inviting them to be my bridesmaids
- h.yun, claudia, athena.
three of them, they don't know each other,
but they all love me wholeheartedly.
i was admiring friendships in sex and the city,
was wondering if one day the four of us could mix together,
but at last,
i want to keep the current relationship.
each of them were speacial to me,
going through a lot with me,
giving me good guidance and supporting me anytime anywhere.
this is what i was looking for,
a solid bond between us, strong and on-going friendship.

this morning with claud reminds me of our old days at bangsar,
at starbucks (our 'lau di fang'), sharing notes,
encouraging each others.
it's not easy to keep the connection
especially i left country after our 3 months knowing each other.
but we made it through.
hons, i'm glad i met you on 3rd january 2006,
a day i would never forget, the day i found someone so close.

looking at my little sister,
i wonder, how long will she take to meet true friends?
is her present friends remaining or converting into past tense.
well, there's a lot to learn in friendship,
there's a lot to go through, there's some to give up,
there's some to give in.
hopefully she'll learn through every happenings
and stand strong while making sacrifies.

loves
girl on road

let's welcome

happy2009!!!
to surprise people who know me for years
i had a new hair cut :)
let's welcome me with fringe


this was me
this is me :)

this is us



girl on road