today's mood : happy
after few days, i think our friendship back to normal. Not fully but at least, we started to talk again, hang out again, huggin each other again.. Missed those thing when we're havin problem. Went for a movie on Sunday, then havin fun at arcade. Had bah kut teh for lunch, and took picture at dreamland. Brought her to my science tuition too. Even zach said we look alike. People always thought we're sister, as in real sister. But actually we are only 4yrs friends.in between, we go through a lot of things. Happiness, sadness, loneliness, craziness and so on. Watched more than 20movies together, took more than 300bucks photo at dreamland, spend more than 250days per year.having the same taste, but not on choosing boyfriend.
Monday, asked Nat to bring my stuff last Friday. Not going to school since yun was here. So asked jun helped me to collect my stuff. But as expected, she only bring my esprit shorts. How bout the money ? She said she need to pay it to Mr selvam for tuition thing i suppose. But how bout me ? I'm getting pissed. Mom has been asking long time. Beside, how bout my blue fila shorts ? Science notes? Year is going to end soon. Class is no longer havin. Students no longer goin to school. How am i going to take back my stuff before holiday if things keep going like this? The only way is, like what my parents said, ask from her parents. But this will be my last steps, don't want her parents scold her anyway.
wish that our class trip to penang can postpone. So i can go pangkor trip with yun. wanna enjoy beach volleyball with arif and thean they all.. hahaha.. Should be really fun..
with <3,>
baby wei *huggies* *muaskz*
Tuesday
Friday
isa's day
today's mood : happy :-)
happy birthday to isa ! well.. bought 5 cake last night for isa.. and i think they are delicious.. i'm on diet.. so i dint eat.. hehehe.. well.. i took a bite.. and the tiramisu was delicious. early in the morning before 9am.. isa reached my house.. knock on my room door.. and i just wake up.. hahaha.. lazy bum.. then, we waited char to pick us up to ou. meeting jun,joee ,brian they all there. we're all out for movie and of cause for isa. our movie started at 4.45pm.. so we got like.. hmmmm.. 4 hours plus to hang around in ou. had lunch at old asia, met MJ.. she's still 'friendly' and today's her birthday too. after that, we went to the snooker place with jun teng & isa for fussball and pool.. me and isa partner & we woop jun teng and char on fussball.. yohooo.. it's my first time playing anyway. den, we played photo hunt with joee & sze liang. hahaa.. break the record too. hmmm.. not bad huh.. watched into the blue.. jessica alba is fuckin hot !! oh my god.. her body is super nice.. nice shape.. nice ass.. nice tits.. everything nearly perfect.. huhhhh.. her ass is so firm.. woww.. wondering the guys got any erection about it.. blekk.. nahhh.. i'm notty.. hahahaa.. after the movie, we went isa's house. his house.. hmmm.. the area is some dunno what malay kampung.. and is so scary.. dark.. quiet.. deep inside.. that's my first impression.. but isa's house is nice and cooling.. w/o air-cond. and not forget to mention.. his mom !!! cooking skills are best of the best. food are so nice.. better than the restaurant.. not forget to mention the home made ice-cream cake with fruits on top.. wowww... that's the bomb!!! and the salad.. chicken.. pasta.. lots of food.. hmmmm...yummy yummy !
things finally settled.. i guess.. 'u' got ur own life now.. wish everything's fine.. and everyone preparing for spm.. hmmmm.. pmr over.. n now is time for us.. the spm student !! wohhooooo..
with <3,
wei
happy birthday to isa ! well.. bought 5 cake last night for isa.. and i think they are delicious.. i'm on diet.. so i dint eat.. hehehe.. well.. i took a bite.. and the tiramisu was delicious. early in the morning before 9am.. isa reached my house.. knock on my room door.. and i just wake up.. hahaha.. lazy bum.. then, we waited char to pick us up to ou. meeting jun,joee ,brian they all there. we're all out for movie and of cause for isa. our movie started at 4.45pm.. so we got like.. hmmmm.. 4 hours plus to hang around in ou. had lunch at old asia, met MJ.. she's still 'friendly' and today's her birthday too. after that, we went to the snooker place with jun teng & isa for fussball and pool.. me and isa partner & we woop jun teng and char on fussball.. yohooo.. it's my first time playing anyway. den, we played photo hunt with joee & sze liang. hahaa.. break the record too. hmmm.. not bad huh.. watched into the blue.. jessica alba is fuckin hot !! oh my god.. her body is super nice.. nice shape.. nice ass.. nice tits.. everything nearly perfect.. huhhhh.. her ass is so firm.. woww.. wondering the guys got any erection about it.. blekk.. nahhh.. i'm notty.. hahahaa.. after the movie, we went isa's house. his house.. hmmm.. the area is some dunno what malay kampung.. and is so scary.. dark.. quiet.. deep inside.. that's my first impression.. but isa's house is nice and cooling.. w/o air-cond. and not forget to mention.. his mom !!! cooking skills are best of the best. food are so nice.. better than the restaurant.. not forget to mention the home made ice-cream cake with fruits on top.. wowww... that's the bomb!!! and the salad.. chicken.. pasta.. lots of food.. hmmmm...yummy yummy !
things finally settled.. i guess.. 'u' got ur own life now.. wish everything's fine.. and everyone preparing for spm.. hmmmm.. pmr over.. n now is time for us.. the spm student !! wohhooooo..
with <3,
wei
Monday
Something wrong
Today's mood : normal
not in a good mood. Seems like lot of things happen nowadays. Especially, friendship btw me and yun. I don't know what's going on actually. Maybe, my prediction is right. Ever since she started relationship with kl.. I know, one day.. He'll take over my place and be the top of her toplist. Always thought I'm the one she'll always rely but not anymore.. After these years, I think is time for me to let go her. I mean, I always take the job to protect her and be there for her all time. But this is no longer my job. hmm.. Thought to talk to her last Friday.. But end up me alone waiting in my room and she's playing outside. That's why I said.. This is not a easy problem for us to solve.
luckily.. There's still a bunch of friends supporting me. For ex like char, Sophie,mich, ky and isa.. Not forget to mention jun too.. They're there cheering me up, make sure I'm alright. hmmm. Thanks a lot dude.. But.. I know.. I missed those days we used to hang around.. Taking pix.. Now.. Wondering.. There's no current pic of both of us.. Not anymore.. There's no picture of this look alike closest sisters.
end of this year's class trip, no more Bali trip. Bali attacked by boom. Parents won't allow us to visit there even after few months. So, we're going penang. kalai noe dat place well.. So guess we'll have fun. Watched the skeleton something with char and Sophie. The storyline is interesting. Something bout the hoodoo which attracted me. Wondering is there really black magic happening around us. hmmmm.. Maybe, who knows. But the ending, well actually no ending.. The story and the black magic is never ending.
started to write a personal diary. writing something i wouldn't show in this blog. something deep down in my heart. which i only want me, myself to know it and read it. this is another way of psychological healing. way to express feelings.
with <3,
baby wei
not in a good mood. Seems like lot of things happen nowadays. Especially, friendship btw me and yun. I don't know what's going on actually. Maybe, my prediction is right. Ever since she started relationship with kl.. I know, one day.. He'll take over my place and be the top of her toplist. Always thought I'm the one she'll always rely but not anymore.. After these years, I think is time for me to let go her. I mean, I always take the job to protect her and be there for her all time. But this is no longer my job. hmm.. Thought to talk to her last Friday.. But end up me alone waiting in my room and she's playing outside. That's why I said.. This is not a easy problem for us to solve.
luckily.. There's still a bunch of friends supporting me. For ex like char, Sophie,mich, ky and isa.. Not forget to mention jun too.. They're there cheering me up, make sure I'm alright. hmmm. Thanks a lot dude.. But.. I know.. I missed those days we used to hang around.. Taking pix.. Now.. Wondering.. There's no current pic of both of us.. Not anymore.. There's no picture of this look alike closest sisters.
end of this year's class trip, no more Bali trip. Bali attacked by boom. Parents won't allow us to visit there even after few months. So, we're going penang. kalai noe dat place well.. So guess we'll have fun. Watched the skeleton something with char and Sophie. The storyline is interesting. Something bout the hoodoo which attracted me. Wondering is there really black magic happening around us. hmmmm.. Maybe, who knows. But the ending, well actually no ending.. The story and the black magic is never ending.
started to write a personal diary. writing something i wouldn't show in this blog. something deep down in my heart. which i only want me, myself to know it and read it. this is another way of psychological healing. way to express feelings.
with <3,
baby wei
Tuesday
someone read my blog and feeling insecure. Someone read my blog and asked why am i doing this ? Which I'm really blurr right now. But i think they might misunderstand something.. Asking why feeling insecure but there's no reply. hmmm.. Just wanna make things clear again.. My blog is where i release my stress and tells out my feelings. Once I've chosen someone to be his, I'm his. no other things or other thoughts. But if he doesn't want to believe me, then too bad la.. a relationship w/o trustworthy is not a good thing.. If I'm not someone's i will be flirtie and messing around.. And that's me. People misunderstood that I'm playgirl or whatever they thought i am. But me myself know and yun understand me well. i don't easily accept people just because they like me or caring. What i want is feelings. feelings come, i accept. Feelings go, I'll tell the truth. i don't know what others think about me having this attitude, but that's me. Love me, love my attitude. I've been hurt in my previous relationship. Deep cut down inside my heart. What i want is not promise anymore, not super duper serious relationship at the moment. But casual one. Casual relationship doesn't mean not serious at all. i just want freedom and let everything go on smoothly. That's what people say, slow and steady.. Which things working well now. Instead of having a super serious relationship, i enjoy the casual one. At least, i won't feel pressure. Won't feel so bad if anything happen. But people usually don't understand. If u wanna say I'm a b**** or playgirl.. Go on.. i don't give a damn as i know I'm not. But let me tell u guys, u've never been in an awful relationship that hurts like shit, tearing ur heart apart and remind u always. That's why, u won't know how i feel actually. Not even my closest family and yun.
with <3,
baby wei
*muaskz*
*huggies*
with <3,
baby wei
*muaskz*
*huggies*
Monday
feeling awful right now. Just got back from tuition. Actually, it's not a big deal. Maybe I'm a bit over-react, but i seriously don't feel good. But that's what going on around us, people used people when they needed them. Once they found out the person was used long time no longer useful, out the person go. i sort of feel like I'm in this situation. When nobody have tuition with *him, he called me. But once there's another person appear, *he's finding excuse to get my ass off from there. Really don't feel good. Maybe *he's right. I'm learning' fast and all that. But he never think that, beside havin tuition with *him & someone, i don't think there are people living near by who need tuition like i do. So how am i going to join others ? Or take anyone to start another tuition class with.. Sigh. What else can i say but accept the suggestion ? Yea.. Feel bad. Maybe.. For my own good ? And theirs? Maybe.. Anything.. Not going to make them feel bad.. Even thou they kinda cruel to me in someway.. I'm not as good as what they thought. Only at that particular section I'm good.. Anyway.. There's no need for this to go on.. I'm the exception now. What i should do is?? Do it by myself.
phew.. Feel better now.. After splitting all problems & negative thoughts. That's me.. no matter what happen.. I'll be fine. i know I'll be fine. Trust me. Trust my ability to be alright all time. Getting tougher & stronger nowadays. Realized nobody is really ur good or close friends. ur closest friend and the one who understand u the most is urself. Be good to urself, be honest to urself. Find someway to express ur feelings and all.. u'll feel better. That's what i always do and I'm doing right now.. :-) move it on. God bless !
with <3,
baby wei
*huggies*
*muaskz*
phew.. Feel better now.. After splitting all problems & negative thoughts. That's me.. no matter what happen.. I'll be fine. i know I'll be fine. Trust me. Trust my ability to be alright all time. Getting tougher & stronger nowadays. Realized nobody is really ur good or close friends. ur closest friend and the one who understand u the most is urself. Be good to urself, be honest to urself. Find someway to express ur feelings and all.. u'll feel better. That's what i always do and I'm doing right now.. :-) move it on. God bless !
with <3,
baby wei
*huggies*
*muaskz*
Hmmm
today's mood : normal
nearly 12.30 in the morning. suppose to be sleeping like a pig but instead i'm updating my blog here. Tai gor gor & his gf sleeping over night at my house. he's my dad's god-son i guess. nice fella, very tall.. around 183cm i guess. from taiping. but his gf, i don't seems to like her that much. she was so picky on our dinner at imbi palace. she doesn't eat vege at all !!! and no birdnest, no sharkfin, no seafood..hmmm.. weird girl.
something happen 2day. it make me realize that, there's some problem btw us. i don't know what is that. but i know, there seems to like have a gap. nowadays, or maybe started long time ago.. i'm no longer the one to talk to or to rely on or to put on the first place.. somebody take over my place. is that a good thing ? i don't know. felt left out in someway. but, that's what i predict long time ago. sigh.
visited *sapphire's blog. *sapphire thought i over come everything. but, he won't know what am i facing. if he's really understand me that well.. he wouldn't say that. anyway, know that he's facing problem bout choosing somebody. don't know if he'll consider my suggestion but just wanna let him know.. actually, choosing somebody is harder than loving somebody. you won't know if u've missed the one u actually wanted but what u can do is to appreciate, and try to let the one u are havin to be the one u wanted.. to tell honestly, i don't really get over my case.. but at least i tried. i try to accept other things.. accept others opinion.. think in different perspective. trying so hard. i know *sapphire thinks that i'm a b****.. but i know i'm not what he thought. some1 said i'm the one who make him change.. i wish i'm not. only if there's second chance.
bali bom by terrorist again. i guess. don't think daddy mummy's going to let me visit bali end of the year with my classmates. sigh. where should we go then ? lets think about it.
wanna watch into the blue so badly. jess alba's so damn HOT !!!
with <3,
baby
*huggies*
*muaskz*
nearly 12.30 in the morning. suppose to be sleeping like a pig but instead i'm updating my blog here. Tai gor gor & his gf sleeping over night at my house. he's my dad's god-son i guess. nice fella, very tall.. around 183cm i guess. from taiping. but his gf, i don't seems to like her that much. she was so picky on our dinner at imbi palace. she doesn't eat vege at all !!! and no birdnest, no sharkfin, no seafood..hmmm.. weird girl.
something happen 2day. it make me realize that, there's some problem btw us. i don't know what is that. but i know, there seems to like have a gap. nowadays, or maybe started long time ago.. i'm no longer the one to talk to or to rely on or to put on the first place.. somebody take over my place. is that a good thing ? i don't know. felt left out in someway. but, that's what i predict long time ago. sigh.
visited *sapphire's blog. *sapphire thought i over come everything. but, he won't know what am i facing. if he's really understand me that well.. he wouldn't say that. anyway, know that he's facing problem bout choosing somebody. don't know if he'll consider my suggestion but just wanna let him know.. actually, choosing somebody is harder than loving somebody. you won't know if u've missed the one u actually wanted but what u can do is to appreciate, and try to let the one u are havin to be the one u wanted.. to tell honestly, i don't really get over my case.. but at least i tried. i try to accept other things.. accept others opinion.. think in different perspective. trying so hard. i know *sapphire thinks that i'm a b****.. but i know i'm not what he thought. some1 said i'm the one who make him change.. i wish i'm not. only if there's second chance.
bali bom by terrorist again. i guess. don't think daddy mummy's going to let me visit bali end of the year with my classmates. sigh. where should we go then ? lets think about it.
wanna watch into the blue so badly. jess alba's so damn HOT !!!
with <3,
baby
*huggies*
*muaskz*
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