Merdeka Eve

okey.

i am on a diet plan.

publicly announcing here, i wanna lose weight! hahaha. you won't believe this. i put on 6 kg in a year, which is so dead. so now, before going back for my three months holiday break, i have to get rid of it. wish me luck. i just want to hear " what happen to you/what's wrong with you? you lost weight. " but not " oh my god! you're so fat. " well, maybe not directly saying that way but something like that. it's really not good saying a girl fat, it somehow, killing her self-esteem.

did i put on weight?

or losing them?

went to the financial foreign exchange dealing session this morning. me, Alice, Dennis and Christine managed to make 36millions of profit. it's so tiring sitting there two hours to deal with the foreign exchange market.

any of you watch <> ?

okey. if you haven't, you can go for it. it's hilarious.

but, i am now interested in watching

call me crazy. it looks like it's a nice movie.
i mean, i might start to get nervous and scare when swimming at somewhere but hey! let's not allow that little something not near to phobia stop me from watching it. so, any of you interested? to watch with me, taking the risk that i am most probably hiding behind my fingers or by your shoulder.

also, a movie i wanted to watch so badly, but it's not showing in melbourne.

edit at 11.54pm
few minutes left and Malaysian in Melbourne, and Malaysian in Malaysia, will be shouting MERDEKA!! left me, here at home, sitting in front of my desktop, budgeting to get myself a apple mac book and googling. yes, i am saving for Apple Mac Book! anyone wanna share the $?

and i found this, from jayden's.

roars of laughter from me half way watching it. hey! i found a new stupid way to look skinny and hot. without doing any exercise and correcting eating habits. damn! photoshop is magic! that's why everyone is using. well, not every single one, but you know, loads people using. i wonder why don't i get someone to teach me how to use it. instead, i am now running average 2km per day. i know it's not much but i do it at least 4 times a week. which equals to? hahahah.

all overall

he scares me.

Les Haberfield, my commercial law tutor.

frankly speaking, Les is really a good tutor. if were to compare with those i had before. good tutor, means, making me doing homework and not missing any of the class, if possible. believe or not, i have not missed his class. even if i missed the morning one, he will see me sitting at the corner in the afternoon class. not because i like him so much, but i am afraid i might missed something important. he is a really strict tutor which is good, resulting me improving in his subject. next week, will be the first subjective test worth 20% for the finals. and i know, i have to score. so, my weekend is done. planned, packed with studies.

take the study part aside, i have been arranging my folders. a lot of them. grouping up and renaming them. found a couple of photos i cherish a lot and wanted to share them.

this is ken's new pet - gucci
she smells like vanila. i prefer calling her creamy but hey, not mine!

my all time favorite puppy - cookie.
i know you people already familiar with it, she always appears in my blog.

every moment with you, i cherish.

seeing the mother-daughter look alike.
i am sure. i've got your genes in my blood.

see how retarded i can be. when i am with the chang's.

two drunken people at k box on sam's brithday.

another three sweating pig at love machine on anzac eve.

my girls~

last but not least....

seven - lavish - bond - top 1- home

i am not too sure what is so bothering me these days. i am just not so in joyful mood. thank god i am famine, having the permission to be emotional at times do help me to get an excuse out of it.

this is conflicting to the previous post, but i went out this Friday!

after handing up the debate essay, received a call from the girls saying to chill out tonight. i have not been going out for such a long time, to be exact, since march, so i agreed. wore my black suit with ax tie and fluffy skirt with boots. i look high school, yet funky.

met up with the girls at concept blue, then met Jacky at Lonsdale before taking a maxi cap to SEVEN, located at 52 Albert road, South Melbourne. it's crowded out there. yes, you did not hear me wrong, out there. upon arrival, we saw at least a hundred human creature looking out there queuing. what's going on? damn. i never see Lavish in such ostentation. and i met Ben and Jane, my primary schoolmate. she looks great. anyway, we end up clubbing at Lavish.

thanks Jacqueline to come out and talk to the door girl, so we don't have to queue. still, i like Lavish more. they have good music, and good people. met Ken there, which is good but bad. yes, i don't know what's wrong but he doesn't seems to quite 'layan' me. anyhow, met another guy, Kai Young! almost fell from the stage when he pulled me. the night wasn't that fun, suppose to have Aeni around. too bad. after that, we walked from Lavish, which is at 800 Bourke Street, Dockland, to Bond Bar at Bond St and Flinders Street, in city. took an hour for us to walk, and my feet, having a couple of blister now. didn't quite enjoy in Bond but it's all good. it's good because i went with my girls. however, Jacky and me left half way to Top 1. chit chatty a bit with Wan. and here we go, home.

was super happy to receive B's call on the way to club. and txted him on the way home. he kept his promise by sending me a message when he got home and get ready to sleep. sweet.

by the way, Happy 20th Birthday to Jacky!! xoxo

it fills me up

another busy day. done my marketing quiz 4 a couple of minutes ago, which i did it bad enough. well, maybe not that bad, the class average shows 14.13 and i got 13. oh no, wait! below average, that's bad. and after the quiz, still, i have to stick my ass on the chair thinking how to finish up my marketing debate. i swear this week's is hard. just don't quite understand the whole education system of rmit; why do we have to take the quiz and hand up the debate essay every week? and the marks are counted for finals. damn! also, we have to online playing the market place game, which is sort of working the theories in real life, and yes, it's part of the final assessment.

only marketing itself fills up my weekdays after five happy hours.
again, i have commercial law, financial markets, price and market to busy with.
so, goodbye my weekend.




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memories with J

i was arranging my pictures album. grouping it up accordingly. found a couple of pictures i took in year 2006 with my foundation studies mates. realizing myself were smiling so happily in my foundation year. especially those with j in it. those are times i do not want myself to get involve in r case. i should have know in the first place. i should have realize before its too late. however, it's over and now, everything just back to zero where one have to go all over again.

ignore those pinkish pimples on me ^_^" but look at the smile. i don't remember smiling like this in any of pictures after leaving J, FYI the one on my left. trust me, you don't know how bad i felt, no, i am feeling. J disappeared in my life just like that *snap*.

see another playful yet cheerful me? the one with hat is Aeni, the black dude is Dennis and yes, that's J. we used to be so closed. hanging out at my place watching movie, sleepover. still remember zombie! hahaha. and j, used to buy me food and some dry food just in case i wasn't free or too lazy to get out of the house. how sweet.

OK, i know i look ugly in this picture. but we look good, overall. right?
last picture of me and J before ending the post.

basically, this post is more to a memoirs of J and S.

trip to the dizzy ocean road..

the digital time showing on my desktop is 12.55am.

yes, i am still awake. not suppose to be blogging as i still have a lot to read for tomorrow's test. i know i shouldn't be so tense up as it's just a test which doesn't worth much for the finals. however, i just couldn't go in without having something in mind. to relax a bit, i agreed to go out for a walk with xxx when he called. it's a short walk, for like ten minutes. was thinking if i am still into this guy, who i once deadly madly totally in love with. and the answer: remain unknown. maybe i just don't want to think about it anymore. he's now picking up another ex-gf, after dropping me home. what a joke, isn't it. anyway, i shouldn't have talk much about him.

parents, siblings are now sleeping soundly. while i was being slothful a little, updating my being left out blog. they are here visiting. it's great having family around, especially when you're overseas. it's just different.

we went to the great ocean road trip which certainly brought us to the twelve apostles. i have to say the scenery is beautiful. i mean, considering i love the ocean so much, i do think the ocean is so beautiful. also, i saw people surfing. yes, at this time, winter!

we took the AATkings bus. first passed by the Geelong

then, we reached Torquay Town for breakfast. it's a small town but its the home of surfing.

after lunch, we arrived bell beach. which is the oldest surfing competition avenue.

daddy and me at the bell beach point.

they also called it the point of b & b

then, we passed by Airey Valley. what a beautiful day.

on the way through Anglesea which lead us to the Great Ocean Road

i was too dizzy to take any photo along it got a lot of turning point. however, i manage to take this one, it's also the great ocean road, upon arrival.....

Apollo Bay! where we had lunch after the one hour dizzy ocean road.
another hour of traveling across the forest,
and here we are...
the Twelve Apostles. it's actually in between of Princetown and Port Campbell.

apparently, there are four broken. so, left eight. =(

then, twenty minutes drive to Port Campbell where we have the London Bridge

and again, its the broken bridge. it was joined with the left one.

i love this a lot. it's like showing a way out of something, somehow.

but i love this the most. cause i love those people inside the photo, those having the same smile, and sharing the same family name.

and now...
back to studies!

It's Not Funny At All

woke up around 9 in the morning. two hours to my commercial law tutorial. instead of going back to sleep that is foreseeable of overslept, turned on my computer and do some reading.

went to ryan's blog through jayden. unfortunately, i found this post about school bullier in smk yuk choy, ipoh. and the bullier are female. which really, annoyed me.




that's so unbelievable.
i am sure she has attitude problem, and i am pretty confirm the school will take action, or maybe the education department should have do it. public apologies should be conduct not only through newspaper or magazines, but also live TV and radio broadcasting. since she is urge to be famous, let her be. kiwi leong, perfectly showing immaturity and also the scum of students. not forget to mention, she is the biggest shame of the feminine. apparently, she is acting like the leader among the girls, who think she's pretty or in power just because she was the finalist of the shine teens 2007. i can't believe this acting cool slapping is still going on in high school. and make it worst, having another friend video taping it thinking it's symbol of cool character or to make a great. they seriously have issues.

kiwi leong, you are just so pathetic.

response to the season of heartaches

recently, my life is all about study. eying on my17inc lcd do hurt my eyes. sticking my ass on the computer chair is not going to flatten my bottom but double up the size. damn! why do we have to use the internet to do our assignment, assessment, quizzes, exercises? the society relies on technology sometimes do hit on my nerves. i am not saying sitting here blogging or just simply checking emails, not just googling for news and be chatty for a couple of hour; but being here for the whole 8 hours, minimum, doing research and reading, without logging in my msn.

blogging is like the best way, beside msn, for me to be connected to the world. *laughoutloud* that's too much. what i mean is to be up-to-date on things happening around my friends and family. beside the msn, i think internet done a great job by having this whole blog-out-your-life-to-the-world thing to keep everyone in touch. it's so a la mode for someone who 'use' the computer to have a blog. every gender, every races, at different age. seeing laozhabor blog is just like seeing my grandma webcaming with me and other relatives. they are trying to keep the generation gap at this point, not pulling off more and more. which is, good.

i read an article posted by a friend of mine. read it a couple of time as it is a really good one. although it's not originated by her, it still surprise me. i knew her for a year and a half, surprisingly we are quite compatible. the biggest difference between us, she was a complete pessimistic. lack of self confidence as well. *dear, i am really happy to see you posting that article. it shows you're driving off from pessimistic. i am sure bin hau has done pretty much.* by reading that post, i assumed she had overcome the low tide from the break-up .

the article: the season of heartaches
it sound encouraging anyway.
read it, thought of it, and agreed with her and my other darling, hz. it is a wonderful one. it touches my heart and definitely imposed encouraging thoughts when you read it. however, being able to face heartaches with such open and clear of frame of mind is not as easy as snapping your fingertips.

life is full of difficulties, ups and downs. sometimes it's so bitter that you just want to give up. at times, it's like having whole lots of sour plum in your mouth and it cramp your stomach. but never forget, there are times when it fills with sugar. sweet and happy. those are flavor that have to be tasted in life, psychologically especially.

however, when falling takes over standing, you feel better to be fallen. thinking of standing stands a chance to fall again, sometimes you just rather to be fallen so you won't fall again. i know it sounds a bit out of reason, but that's how i feel. you fall and you crawl and you try to stand up and when you finally standing, one simple push resulted another process of falling to standing. tiring, that's the only feeling left with me.

it's good to have something to remember, that you will smile when you think about it; or even laugh at it when you are having a get-together dinner with all the long-time-no-see friends to catch up with. i do have a couple of person in mind, in heart, that whenever i think of them, smiles just simply get on my face. but also, there are people who causes my abnormal nerves. contradictorily made me wonder, am i ambiversion?

yes. an angel and devil living in me.

by the way,
happy belated 19th birthday to Valerie
and,
happy belated 17th birthday to Freddie

dislike. bad week.

the first thing i do every morning (beside checking if there's any message or missed calls showing on my n73 screen), not cleaning up myself but switching on my desktop computer. it's a little unhygienic and messy, i know. but who cares? i am living with my brother, not my boyfriend. furthermore, he left to school when i wake up which perfectly allow me to have this very good excuse to be slothful a little. even though its really a bad habit to not at least brush and clean my mouth. but i am not going to speak to anyone face-to-face until i left home, so i don't see what's wrong here. *wink* they won't take in my bad breathe by any chance.

things haven't been working well this week. yes, this whole week.

firstly, uni work loads pressing on me, hard and tough. which marketing debate and the so-called quiz which apparently worth some marks for the subjects happens every week starting from now! stress stress.

and also, the kids i have been hanging around with are having friendship issues. double damn for that! i feel unhappy about that. honest speaking, i like hanging out with them. they are simple, fun, and i just have lots of smiles and laugh out loud with them. however, i haven't been seeing double couple of them for a week. which certainly big problem! and when i finally asked, yes, they are all break-up. with no reason. maybe there is one or two, but all stubborn enough to not give a way. i am worried. real worrying them. hope everything will be fine, soon. i want it to be very soon. Freddie's birthday today, and Yang's birthday coming. they were planning to celebrate together next Saturday before this war happens, and now.... ? i doubt.

High School Kiddooo

oh-my-god. i am wondering if there is anyone out there saying university life is best. bull-shit ! not that i dislike but i rather be in high school. high school is just so relaxing and full of fun. especially after hanging out with a bunch of high school kids these days. they are my brother's schoolmate. being with them are just fun, laugh all the way simply about nothing. my new gang to hang around, they are Yang, Amy, Daniel, Freddie, Robert, Klyde, Candy and Tina.

it's my second semester of first year in RMIT. and already, i am feeling the stress. commercial law, marketing principle, financial market and price & market are not as easy as i thought. i don't know if it's just happen to be me feeling that or what. maybe, i am giving myself pressure as well. i never put in that much effort. today, Saturday, and i went to the state library with ang to do my commercial law research assessment, instead of sticking my ass on the settee.

went to Yang's place on Friday. its' like thirty over stops from the city. far but it's a nice place. the house is big and comfy. but a little too chilly. after that, we went Chinatown and meet up with Daniel's father. had dinner together, and i met Lern! smart guessing the girl next to him is his current girlfriend. seeing them happily come for dinner. Daniel's dad is stubborn. symbolism of autocracy. all of us just couldn't stand it and playful Freddie came out with an idea to get rid of it. we asked Amy to call him and he pretended home stay calling asking him to go home. we laughed after leaving. all separated. Yang and Klyde went Boxhill to meet Sunny. Candy, Tina and Robert went home. left me, Amy, Freddie and Simon. we went K box till 12midnight. that's my Friday night!

Amy and Sylvia

Sylvia and Gucci

Gucci (Ken's new pet )