those days..

when the day have passed by, i realized how much i've missed.

a month to go and i'm gonna say goodbye to the title of being a teenager. double ten, stepping into the twenties. i know it will be something new, another level of life is about to start. looking back the 19 years of being a daughter, a friend, a niece, a cousin... what have i done to make some one actually praised.

realizing how long haven't i heard a laud, and it actually cause my heart break. maybe i shouldn't use such a strong word to express, maybe just a tiny crack that resulted continuously leakage. how fascinating is it to be valued, to be care, to be love?

i am not blaming nor complaining, but i missed those days, those days i had my fringe tied up, big hand holding my tiny one running over the ground. hugging my 'goofy' little brother wishing a present from santa on bed on the night we called christmas eve. its only been 14 years ago, but feels 40 years to me.

remembering the singapore movie 'i'm not stupid 2', couldn't be agree more, how long have you not praising someone? tell me i'm worth the laud, lecture me with your thoughts and feels. don't feel bad when i look like i don't care. cause i'm born to have that face. i care a lot, but it just don't show on my face. what can i do ? forcing to show an overreact caring face? that's so perfunctory. i assure you, i take in advice, but there are times, i don't give a damn. as you never feel me, you never put yourself in my place, you never felt being so left out yet you couldn't do a thing.

jealousy doesn't exists as it never gonna work. people tend to jealous and envy and do something stupid, because they want a difference, something in return. but why jealous when you know it's pathetic useless and practically won't work either way. jealousy kill a man. damage your brain, ruin your emotion, as for ladies, brings lines on your face. take in the yoga talk, inhale ... exhale.. breath.. count to 5.. it's no big deal. you are still the same old you, you've changed but no one see. yes, don't blame them. we're all human. human often look others' weakness but not the goods. now i wonder, why don't you magnifies the positive value of a person, instead of shaking head over their flaw. i'm not perfect, and never want to be. perfection cost too much. being myself, trying to do my best, that's the most i can do, not only for me, but all of you. yet, you don't see it. being good, being perfect takes great responsibility. i am not the kind of people who are afraid of the force but no when i'm only 20.

tell me i'm brats, tell me i'm spoiled. i couldn't agree more.

whisper from heart

lay a whisper on my pillow
touch me now before i go
believing we're together
that i'm sheltered in your heart
tell me i should be feeling suffice
to hold you through the night

smiles bring us together
hugs tied our hearts along
kisses showering love all over
laughter giving the hopes forever
don't ever let me find you gone
cause that would bring a tear

i am not sure of the words to speak
to keep love growing for long
if and only if you know how it feels
to wish dreams turning real

show me the way you want me to
show me the love through your eyes
you should know i am by your side
still, i want you to want me
i want you to need me
and please don't leave me behind

i tried so hard ...
till sometimes i feel the pain
yet, i hold on tight

Perth is NOT old-man-town

I'm BACK... from Perth.

it's been days since my last post which is also an useless + meaningless post.
so there's a little too much to write about.
be patient or just click the cross right up at your right corner of the window.

first year of my bachelor of economic and finance are officially over. exams ended weeks ago. meaning my four months holiday started. *wink* however, i am good girl enough to not going back so soon, as to enjoy a bit in Aussie. so to put my thoughts into action, i went to the western Australia. last thursday, randomly bought the air ticket to Perth at 12something midnight, after 8hours, i am on the plane flying to the west side of Australia. random, i know. i felt young being that random. with no plans, no booking for accommodation, and here i come, Perth.

it's my first time to Perth, according to 'people', it suppose to be an old-man-town, not suitable for young people like me! but hey, you are wrong. Perth is cool. i actually like it more than here in Melbourne. love the weather lots. i almost see no clouds. the skies are always blue, the sun shines like it has the biggest urge to send us warmness. the city is clean and perfectly not as busy as Melbourne. you can just walk all the way, without thinking you might be crushed by tram or something. the two main street, Hay street and Murray street, you got more than enough stuff to get from. its just like the combination or Melbourne inner city. just two street, you can get foods, shops, groceries, big shopping mall. lived in a four star hotel, the Chifley on terrace at St. George street. its clean, the employee are polite and friendly, and its at reasonable price. sorry daddy, i have to live in a hotel instead of motel because there is no where to go. it's the redbull air race 2007, so people have flew from other countries to come and watch it. lucky isn't it. i didn't know there will be air race, and its like two days after i arrived Perth. so, it's in plan to witness it. sushi at Perth, JAWS, the best place to grab cheap yet super fresh and delicious sushi. i had at least four to five plate of unagi sushi, for myself, and at least two plate of salmon sushi. imagine that. *yes, the workout begins once i got back in Melbourne*

went to plenty of places.

1. sci tech and horizontal at city west
- horizontal is like a visual theater talking about the galaxy. love it so much. the universe is full or mystery. stars are beautiful. galaxy are just, simply an interesting object for me to discover more. sci tech is all about science thoughts and things. spend like two hours on both sci tech and horizontal.

2. redbull air race 2007 at sir james mitchell park
- it's my first time watching air race. surprisingly, it's ok. not boring at all. enjoy watching it with the foreigners, oh wait, i am the foreigners there.



3. sir james mitchell park and langley park
- walk all the way from sir james mitchell park and passed by langley park to the city. took the public ferry to cross swan river and start walking. it's a little tiring but the scenario make everything worth it.

sir james mitchell park`

langley park sunset

4. kings park
- should be the largest park i've ever been. it's huge. very comfy and green environment makes you feel fresh. there's a bridge at the walkway which i like watching the swan river from there. is like on top of everything.

green`

flowers`
this is the bridge i'm talking about`


5. Hilarys boat harbour and Aquarium of Western Australia
- my favourite! love the beaches, love the surrounding. had fish & chips there at sharky's which is so yummy that i wouldn't mind running for another 5km cause of the fats putting on me. bought a white rusty thongs. love it! the aquarium is ok, not what i expected. but the moon jellyfish is pretty, just not as big as the one i saw at mordialloc beach back in Melbourne. sunbathing at the beach at hilarys boat harbour. seeing people running and sunbathing around just make you feel like doing it too. applied the garnier's bronze up lotion to make a perfect tan skin. not too bad. i like being tanned than pale white. mom and dad were like 'what?! you went there for sunbathing?every girl wanna be white and you doing the opposite!' hahaha. sorry!

hilarys boat harbor`

can you see the beach where i went sunbathing`

can you see my country?~

west coast`

6. fremantle
- missed the whale watching. went to the submarine museum and get into the real submarine for a tour. and that's why i missed the ferry to whale watching. bad bad. never mind. my next trip, i am going to make it. the market is ok. walk around. strawberry + watermelon juice are great. try mixing it yourself, you might like it. especially when the weather is so summer.

on the way to fremantle`
the e-shed market at fremantle

7. rottness island
- my first time snorkeling happens here. very beautiful ocean surrounding the island. saw different types of fishes which i can't name them. and when swimming with those big fish, i am feeling a bit scared. they are so big. start imagine if i'm swimming with dolphin or sharks. woohoo~ can't wait. the only thing that sort of make me gone crazy is the flies. tons of them. and they just don't seem to go away even you hit them and shoo them. until i get into the water snorkeling. but still, once my face away the water, here they come. annoying, very annoying! like snorkeling, going to love diving only if i got a license which i am planning to do so.

8. swan river
- the river that ferries need to go all the way from perth via city to fremantle, rottness etc.

swan river`

near the ferry port

9. in the city

london court on Hay street

last but not least, thank you daddy mummy for paying the bills`
love love love you guys so much. xoxo

seventh heaven

tagged by claude.
so-called "the number of magical perfection"

7 things to do before i die:
1. having my very own happy family
2. be the mother of at least a boy and a girl
3. travel around with people i love
4. be success not only in family but business
5. to have a couple of license beside driver license
6. able to bring happiness to people i care
7. to die healthy

7 things i will not do even if it kills me:
1. cheating in r/s
2. serious crime
3. killing myself
4. sharing my love with another women
5. to be someone i am not
6. betrayed
7. leaving my family for a guy

7 things i will do when i'm away from the public:
1. showing the real me in wild and crazy way
2. emotional breakdown cry out loud
3. sing out loud like no one on earth
4. putting myself into imagination situation
5. sleep all day like i haven't been doing for a week
6. remembering and recalling good and bad memories
7. rearrange my thoughts and feelings

7 favourite sentences or quotes:
1. how can i lost someone i never have
2. you have no power upon me
3. no one can make you feel inferior but you
4. things might not go your way, make things your way
5. hardwork is not the key, but heart
6. i never will feel happy if i don't felt sad
7. people love who you're not, but envy who you are

7 favourite songs of all time:
1. hard to say i am sorry - az yet
2. hear me cry - utada hikaru
3. narrow daylight - diana krall
4. when you're gone - avril lavigne
5. because of you - kelly clarkson
6. unfaithful - rihanna
7. 傻瓜 - 溫嵐 Landy

7 things i'll make you wish you didn't do it:
1. lies
2. disrespect
3. unfaithful
4. back stabbed
5. betrayed
6. hurt my love one including family
7. trying to fool around with me

7 people to tag:
1. houi yun
2. hui zhi
3. peik shean
4. bettina
5. soo mei
6. jess
7. anyone~

Australia's Smallest Baby

half way doing my financial revision, i slack off and went to theage.com.au . reading a couple of news and saw this with the title "Miraculous Survival of Australia's Smallest Baby".

WHEN she was born, Elora De Bondi's arms barely spanned the length of her mother's finger. The baby was born on January 29 weighing 319 grams, making her possibly the smallest baby born alive in Australia.

Before she was delivered 16 weeks' premature, doctors at the Royal Women's Hospital doubted she would live. But her mother, Adele, even after being told by doctors that they held no hope, never lost her own hope. Ms De Bondi, 29, learnt that her pregnancy was in trouble during an ultrasound scan. Her baby was too small and her pregnancy would most probably end within a month.

"Basically, I was 20 weeks pregnant but the baby was about 17 weeks in size," Ms De Bondi said yesterday. Doctors gave her a course of steroids in the hope of stimulating Elora's growth. Her lungs had scarcely developed.

After two weeks, doctors told Ms De Bondi that her placenta was dying and, with it, Elora. Undeterred by the prognosis, Ms De Bondi demanded a caesarean section despite the risks of losing not only her child but her fertility and her own life. Elora was born after only 24 weeks in the womb. She spent seven months in intensive care attached to ventilators.

Ms De Bondi, from North Balwyn, says Elora came close to dying countless times: she battled infections, renal failure and the stress of her surroundings. Many times doctors advised Ms De Bondi to switch off Elora's life support. Her mother remained steadfast, trusting that her fragile daughter, who she had barely touched, would pull through.

After months in a critical condition, Elora grew to 4.4 kilograms. She left hospital on August 27, astounding doctors with her survival. Elora's pediatrician said her story was "miraculous but the journey is long and uncertain for extremely tiny babies".

"Families, and the staff who care for such premature babies, have faced the most difficult decisions of survival and quality of life," said Sue Jacobs, director of the Royal Women's neonatal services.

Before Elora, the smallest surviving baby at the Royal Women's was Adriana Cassar, born 13 weeks premature, at 374 grams, eight years ago. Elora faces many hurdles. She is fed through a gastronasal tube and her immune system is weak. While her lung disease is expected to clear in childhood, doctors will wait at least two years before giving the all-clear.

It's so touching to see new life on earth. But i felt an ache while seeing the picture of this little baby. She must have gone through a lot, just to be born. Miracle do happen! and god bless she will be living happily and in good health.

男女公不公平 MAN versus WOMAN

i wrote something in my xanga, and surprisingly, got more than 10 comments in few hours.
but to translate it into english, really not an easy job for me. as my poor english might not explain it well. however, will try really hard to do so. ^^

某人說`
a friend of mine said
上天就是如此不公平的
god is unfair
因為...
because...
女人每個月要月經一次，男人不用。
women have to experience menses every month, but not men.
女人每月要經痛好多次，男人不用。
women have to feel the pain due to menses, but not men.
女人要擔起生育責任，男人不用。
women have to bear the pain of giving birth and responsible of it, but not men.
女人在古時候要扎腳，男人不用。
ancient times, women have to tie their feet, but not men.

好奇怪` 那樣也算是不公平嗎
that's quite unreasonable, if is to say it's unfair
女人有月經是因為子宮呀
women having menses is because of the womb
女人經痛很多時候是因為身子弱吧
menses pain mostly because of the health or body condition
生育責任?? 沒有男人 那來的生育責任
giving birth responsibility? without men, you can never be pregnant
古時候的事?? 現在是 2007 年唷
ancient times?? please.. we're living in 2007, hello??

男人也有他們的煩惱吧
furthermore, men have their problems too
禿頭 啤酒肚 青春痘變火山口
bald headed, beer belly, pimples turning into crater
忍受女人的任性 無理取鬧 刁蠻
put up with women's capricious, unreasonable, obstinate
還有..
also ..
最重要的, 至少對我來說
the most important one, at least to me it is
打蟑螂 抓壁虎 赶蜘蛛
kill cockroaches, catch lizards, shoo spiders

我說呀` 女人 你們就學會滿足吧
hence, ladies, learn to be content
來月經的時候 男人都會有偶而得忍讓和溫柔呀
during your menses, men often forbearing and tender to us
經痛的時候 他們也很願意讓你靠著休息呀
menses pain, they are willing to offer a shoulder for you to rest on
生育嘛 產房又沒有規定老公不能陪伴
to give birth, i think the deliver room did not specify husband not allowed
扎腳?? 過了八百年的事情就別提了
tie feet?? its too long to be mention
而且 穿高跟鞋其實還不一樣? 可是女人就是愛漂亮呀
furthermore, wearing high heels is almost the same
but still, women like it

it's OVER

no one can make you feel inferior but you.

i always believe this sentence. god-knows where i heard from.

apparently, there are people out there playing a role making people feeling bad to bring up their spirits or what-so-ever. luckily, i can handle this. it's not my first time, i know just what to do to make me feel superior. >w<" it's only a week++ after my previous post, but something actually happened for almost a week. first, which is quite the major changes, my friendship with *someone is officially over. wasn't confirmed when the incident that broke the friendship happened until *someone not apologizing but twist-turning the facts and blame everything on me. hello?! calling and scolding and being rude like a barbarian to me, i turn over and left. then, i got the blame for being 'different', that's why you don't want to hang out with me anymore? puhh-lease! that's the most pathetic words i've heard you saying ever since i know you. being the so-called depressed definitely not giving you a good reason to treat me like a dog. even my parents never scold me like you did, so who you think you are? bingo! who are you! honestly, i felt terrible after i left as i really treated wholeheartedly but that's just beyond my limit to put up with you. if one don't even know how to respect the others, he/she doesn't even worth your respect. hence, the final decision is we're OVER with the capital o-v-e-r. i'm done with all your shit. felt relief? yes, very indeed.

arghh. i better stop here.
exam in a week, wait, yes 12 days to be exact.
and there are a lot to study.
you know me.. i never good at memorizing it.
damn! just have to understand the whole concept.

bless me.

Fat?!

AM I TOO FAT to FUNCTION?

the top is from Industrie @ Chadstone. love it very much. it's local brand and i think i'll start shopping for their clothes. Scarf is also from Industrie, but it's not mine. =)

My First Time to Chadstone

i know.

it's quite sad to be here for a year, but haven't been to The Fashion Capital, Chadstone, till last Friday.
but it might not sound that bad. proving i am not a shopper =)

Chadstone, is renowned as Melbourne's most pre-eminent shopping destination, encompassing some of oz's best known fashion and lifestyle stores. it is the third largest in the southern hemisphere locating at Dandenong road, Chadstone.

went last Friday to hang around and shop a bit.
i quite like that place. mainly because i don't see familiar face. Melbourne central is cool, but i often see the same people, even the same strangers. we drove to Chadstone around 3 in the afternoon. it's not that far from the city, approximately takes twenty-five to thirty minutes. was so excited all way long. my first thought when stepping into the mall, " my god, this thing is big!" yes, the place is huge. full of shops and its big enough to not see all people stuck at a place even though we had spend a little time searching for a parking space. it's still worth for it. i might get lost if i was there alone. =)

see this! this is the basement floor of Chadstone. still full of shops and food courts. i think they have four food courts.

and this is the ground floor map. Chadstone only have the basement and ground, but it's more than enough.

so big! right? okey. if you've seen a bigger one in Melbourne, ignore me. but it's huge, to me. i am sure i'll be back. comparing it to Melbourne central, i definitely like walking and shopping there. and they have Industrie clothing for female! i never see one in Melbourne central. like the brand, like guys wearing it, it's a local brand. i bought a white tee with heart printed on, and it's from Industrie. he bought two quarter pants and two tee shirts, 3 out of 4 are production of Industrie as well. yipee!

already decided to spend our day in Chadstone till the mall close, we then watched a movie. RUSH HOUR 3.

film reviewer stated it's a two star movie, so does it mean bad? well, we watch it! and it's not that bad. it's hilarious. i laugh most of the time in the cinema. oh, Hoyts in Chadstone look and feel so right too. but not the arcade center, Highpoint's arcade is way better.

like it like it.

also, people have been asking how is my mid-autumn festival or if you want to call it moon cake festival. holla~ i had pizza and marinara spaghetti instead of moon cake! and also, i tried Tartofu. my another favourite ice-cream in town! muuuuaskzz~ thanks to the person who brought me to Chadstone and bought me Tartofu!

愛.. 唉

曾經, 童話這首歌帶給人們不少遐想 尤其女人
神話故事裡頭的愛情 也好像總是轟轟烈烈 至死不渝
但是...
愛情不但不是神話 更沒有童話
愛情 多麼現實 多麼真實
偶爾 就是殘忍 有時候 就是幸福
有愛情 就是可以快樂甜蜜
同時 卻也能夠享受痛苦悲傷

現實生活中
沒有公主和王子永遠過著幸福快樂的故事僑段
怎麼可能永遠幸福快樂 如果沒有嘗過苦澀難過
上演的戲碼也許會有諾言 也許有山盟海誓
卻不會到海枯石爛 更沒有
瓊瑤小說 還珠格格的 "山無堎, 天地合, 才敢與君絕"

速食麵的愛情故事固然屢見不鮮
長壽麵愛情的永久希望也連綿不絕

對不起`
我就是那麼沒有憧憬的看待愛情了
不想要再自以為是浪漫的美化愛情
愛情太多變化了 根本不可能以一種型態呈現
所以 我要的愛情 注入多元素的情緒
要有快樂 要有悲傷 要有恨
要有任性 要有堅持 要有背叛
要有討厭 要有遺憾 要有後悔
最重要的 是要有一輩子生命

那些浪漫無缺的愛情
在電影裡出現 在小說中呈現
在小雨夢裡真實演出 就好了

那麼浪漫天真的渴望那種完沒有傷痕的愛情
最讓人受傷
況且 沒有眼淚 沒有被上的愛情
好像驗證不了愛情的存在

不過 雖然愛情已經不被理想化
但是 我還是很相信愛的
至少現在的自己仍然很堅持自己的愛情

Before.. Malaysia

who need vista when you can get the features while using window xp.
i got the currency converter telling me when to use my credit card for shopping spree, weather forecast telling me what to wear and what not to, photo album that keep changing randomly reminding my memories, play list playing my favourites music, sudoku keep me accompany, sticky note reminding my must do and appointment. bingo! it's good. i don't need a window vista for all that. wink.

it's been quite a while since i last take care this blog. i know i have been slothful and not motivated. anyhow, i did update my xanga, very often. main and only reason, i can express better in Chinese than English. bad, very bad. after study abroad for a year, i still can't help writing and reading Chinese. mom has been telling me to read English text to improve. sort of comparing my level with the neighbour girl, which i dislike, i don't like people comparing me with another. why comparing when both are totally different individual. breed up differently and having different attitude. anyway, i know, my parents still love me. same goes to my little bitch back at home, i miss her so much. miss fighting with her, miss calling each other bitches. i know, it sound rude and not right, but we know the limit and chill with it. so, who cares if others think it's so rude. we respect each other anyway. and we did not do it in front of outsiders. *laugh*

Simon, my brother and i are now having 2 weeks holiday. we have our own life. sometimes we even joke that we are not siblings, just room mate. he is planning to go Sydney but i am backing off. exams in a month, but i got tons to read. financial market already killing me, haven't mention commercial law, price & market and marketing principles. good luck to me. having this two weeks for revision and also shaping up my fat ass body. some said i lost weight, some said i put on pounds. damn! so what am i going to do? yes, continuously working at the gym for my fitness. it's better to believe those saying i put on pounds than believing i lose them. lol. i know, weird, but that's my theory.

my to-do list before going back to Malaysia!

26 09 07 ---Royal Melbourne Show

07 10 07 ---Jacky Cheung concert in Melbourne

11 10 07 ---Resident Evil: Extinction in Hoyts

15 10 07 ---LOST season 3 selling at JB

15 10 07 ---Linkin Park in Melbourne

22 10 07 ~ 28 10 07 ---EXAM WEEK

05 11 07 ---Justin Timberlake bringing sexy back in Melbourne

so far, that's it. not sure about trips after exam. =)

MACCHIATO

Macchiato, an Italian word, meaning stained or marked.

However, there is another meaning for it, Macchiato, means 烙印 a sear, a stamp. I don't know why but liking the word Macchiato after knowing its meaning, and learning how to cook one. for coffee lover, like my parents, i think they will like it. i quit caffeine. cut down huge amount of it, drinks like coke and coffee, they were my favorites. but i have to do it, for my own good. to lose a couple of pounds, and to improve my skins condition. i am not born pretty, but having beautiful characteristic. LOL. hence, to balance off, improving my visual appearance might help a lot.

Merdeka Eve

okey.

i am on a diet plan.

publicly announcing here, i wanna lose weight! hahaha. you won't believe this. i put on 6 kg in a year, which is so dead. so now, before going back for my three months holiday break, i have to get rid of it. wish me luck. i just want to hear " what happen to you/what's wrong with you? you lost weight. " but not " oh my god! you're so fat. " well, maybe not directly saying that way but something like that. it's really not good saying a girl fat, it somehow, killing her self-esteem.

did i put on weight?

or losing them?

went to the financial foreign exchange dealing session this morning. me, Alice, Dennis and Christine managed to make 36millions of profit. it's so tiring sitting there two hours to deal with the foreign exchange market.

any of you watch <> ?

okey. if you haven't, you can go for it. it's hilarious.

but, i am now interested in watching

call me crazy. it looks like it's a nice movie.
i mean, i might start to get nervous and scare when swimming at somewhere but hey! let's not allow that little something not near to phobia stop me from watching it. so, any of you interested? to watch with me, taking the risk that i am most probably hiding behind my fingers or by your shoulder.

also, a movie i wanted to watch so badly, but it's not showing in melbourne.

edit at 11.54pm
few minutes left and Malaysian in Melbourne, and Malaysian in Malaysia, will be shouting MERDEKA!! left me, here at home, sitting in front of my desktop, budgeting to get myself a apple mac book and googling. yes, i am saving for Apple Mac Book! anyone wanna share the $?

and i found this, from jayden's.

roars of laughter from me half way watching it. hey! i found a new stupid way to look skinny and hot. without doing any exercise and correcting eating habits. damn! photoshop is magic! that's why everyone is using. well, not every single one, but you know, loads people using. i wonder why don't i get someone to teach me how to use it. instead, i am now running average 2km per day. i know it's not much but i do it at least 4 times a week. which equals to? hahahah.

all overall

he scares me.

Les Haberfield, my commercial law tutor.

frankly speaking, Les is really a good tutor. if were to compare with those i had before. good tutor, means, making me doing homework and not missing any of the class, if possible. believe or not, i have not missed his class. even if i missed the morning one, he will see me sitting at the corner in the afternoon class. not because i like him so much, but i am afraid i might missed something important. he is a really strict tutor which is good, resulting me improving in his subject. next week, will be the first subjective test worth 20% for the finals. and i know, i have to score. so, my weekend is done. planned, packed with studies.

take the study part aside, i have been arranging my folders. a lot of them. grouping up and renaming them. found a couple of photos i cherish a lot and wanted to share them.

this is ken's new pet - gucci
she smells like vanila. i prefer calling her creamy but hey, not mine!

my all time favorite puppy - cookie.
i know you people already familiar with it, she always appears in my blog.

every moment with you, i cherish.

seeing the mother-daughter look alike.
i am sure. i've got your genes in my blood.

see how retarded i can be. when i am with the chang's.

two drunken people at k box on sam's brithday.

another three sweating pig at love machine on anzac eve.

my girls~

last but not least....

seven - lavish - bond - top 1- home

i am not too sure what is so bothering me these days. i am just not so in joyful mood. thank god i am famine, having the permission to be emotional at times do help me to get an excuse out of it.

this is conflicting to the previous post, but i went out this Friday!

after handing up the debate essay, received a call from the girls saying to chill out tonight. i have not been going out for such a long time, to be exact, since march, so i agreed. wore my black suit with ax tie and fluffy skirt with boots. i look high school, yet funky.

met up with the girls at concept blue, then met Jacky at Lonsdale before taking a maxi cap to SEVEN, located at 52 Albert road, South Melbourne. it's crowded out there. yes, you did not hear me wrong, out there. upon arrival, we saw at least a hundred human creature looking out there queuing. what's going on? damn. i never see Lavish in such ostentation. and i met Ben and Jane, my primary schoolmate. she looks great. anyway, we end up clubbing at Lavish.

thanks Jacqueline to come out and talk to the door girl, so we don't have to queue. still, i like Lavish more. they have good music, and good people. met Ken there, which is good but bad. yes, i don't know what's wrong but he doesn't seems to quite 'layan' me. anyhow, met another guy, Kai Young! almost fell from the stage when he pulled me. the night wasn't that fun, suppose to have Aeni around. too bad. after that, we walked from Lavish, which is at 800 Bourke Street, Dockland, to Bond Bar at Bond St and Flinders Street, in city. took an hour for us to walk, and my feet, having a couple of blister now. didn't quite enjoy in Bond but it's all good. it's good because i went with my girls. however, Jacky and me left half way to Top 1. chit chatty a bit with Wan. and here we go, home.

was super happy to receive B's call on the way to club. and txted him on the way home. he kept his promise by sending me a message when he got home and get ready to sleep. sweet.

by the way, Happy 20th Birthday to Jacky!! xoxo

it fills me up

another busy day. done my marketing quiz 4 a couple of minutes ago, which i did it bad enough. well, maybe not that bad, the class average shows 14.13 and i got 13. oh no, wait! below average, that's bad. and after the quiz, still, i have to stick my ass on the chair thinking how to finish up my marketing debate. i swear this week's is hard. just don't quite understand the whole education system of rmit; why do we have to take the quiz and hand up the debate essay every week? and the marks are counted for finals. damn! also, we have to online playing the market place game, which is sort of working the theories in real life, and yes, it's part of the final assessment.

only marketing itself fills up my weekdays after five happy hours.
again, i have commercial law, financial markets, price and market to busy with.
so, goodbye my weekend.




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memories with J

i was arranging my pictures album. grouping it up accordingly. found a couple of pictures i took in year 2006 with my foundation studies mates. realizing myself were smiling so happily in my foundation year. especially those with j in it. those are times i do not want myself to get involve in r case. i should have know in the first place. i should have realize before its too late. however, it's over and now, everything just back to zero where one have to go all over again.

ignore those pinkish pimples on me ^_^" but look at the smile. i don't remember smiling like this in any of pictures after leaving J, FYI the one on my left. trust me, you don't know how bad i felt, no, i am feeling. J disappeared in my life just like that *snap*.

see another playful yet cheerful me? the one with hat is Aeni, the black dude is Dennis and yes, that's J. we used to be so closed. hanging out at my place watching movie, sleepover. still remember zombie! hahaha. and j, used to buy me food and some dry food just in case i wasn't free or too lazy to get out of the house. how sweet.

OK, i know i look ugly in this picture. but we look good, overall. right?
last picture of me and J before ending the post.

basically, this post is more to a memoirs of J and S.

trip to the dizzy ocean road..

the digital time showing on my desktop is 12.55am.

yes, i am still awake. not suppose to be blogging as i still have a lot to read for tomorrow's test. i know i shouldn't be so tense up as it's just a test which doesn't worth much for the finals. however, i just couldn't go in without having something in mind. to relax a bit, i agreed to go out for a walk with xxx when he called. it's a short walk, for like ten minutes. was thinking if i am still into this guy, who i once deadly madly totally in love with. and the answer: remain unknown. maybe i just don't want to think about it anymore. he's now picking up another ex-gf, after dropping me home. what a joke, isn't it. anyway, i shouldn't have talk much about him.

parents, siblings are now sleeping soundly. while i was being slothful a little, updating my being left out blog. they are here visiting. it's great having family around, especially when you're overseas. it's just different.

we went to the great ocean road trip which certainly brought us to the twelve apostles. i have to say the scenery is beautiful. i mean, considering i love the ocean so much, i do think the ocean is so beautiful. also, i saw people surfing. yes, at this time, winter!

we took the AATkings bus. first passed by the Geelong

then, we reached Torquay Town for breakfast. it's a small town but its the home of surfing.

after lunch, we arrived bell beach. which is the oldest surfing competition avenue.

daddy and me at the bell beach point.

they also called it the point of b & b

then, we passed by Airey Valley. what a beautiful day.

on the way through Anglesea which lead us to the Great Ocean Road

i was too dizzy to take any photo along it got a lot of turning point. however, i manage to take this one, it's also the great ocean road, upon arrival.....

Apollo Bay! where we had lunch after the one hour dizzy ocean road.
another hour of traveling across the forest,
and here we are...
the Twelve Apostles. it's actually in between of Princetown and Port Campbell.

apparently, there are four broken. so, left eight. =(

then, twenty minutes drive to Port Campbell where we have the London Bridge

and again, its the broken bridge. it was joined with the left one.

i love this a lot. it's like showing a way out of something, somehow.

but i love this the most. cause i love those people inside the photo, those having the same smile, and sharing the same family name.

and now...
back to studies!