Tired !!!!!

Today's mood : tired... zzz + moody

Chong Kean's Birthday !!

i'm so so tired..sleep at 9am in the morning..but wake up at 11something..hmmm..had lunch with alvin & yun..den we watch tv..call cab for alvin 2 go kl.. and after he left.. me & yun went ikano power centre.. yun bought stuff that her teacher order her to buy.. and i bought 2 books..hehee.. will read in this week... Feng's exam start on 4th November and Foong's start on 8th November.. the day i leaving 2 newzealand..

Feng & Foong sick deee..aikzz.. all because of me..stupid..not happy lorr..their exam coming but now.. sick pulak..hmmm..Foong spained his wrist..ask him 2 urut but dun want .. stupid stupid stupid.. hmmm.. today me very tired.. cannot stand dee.. not in good mood oso.. hmmm. dun wanna continue deee... wanna sleep dee.. aikzzzz...

4 days before SPM

Their Serious Look

Today's mood :Happy + Scary

Nat & Yoong's birthday !!!

Foong woke me up around 11am..Oh gosh..so late!! Me & Yun plan 2 wake up at 10am and call cab at 11am. But now ?! We're late. All Foong's fault for not waking me up at 10am..hmphh..aikzz..no larr..he wants me 2 sleep late a bit..cos last night we sleep at 4 something in the morning..heheee..Anyway..me & yun get everything done at 12noon.. and we called cab 2 go One Utama..Our original plan.

Met Ee Ling & Annie at Jusco. They're working there. heheee.. Quite sometimes since i last met them..not as close as F.3 deee..aikzz..we bought ticket 2 watch white chicks at 2.10pm..but mei kwan and Alvin are not here yet..so we decided 2 have lunch at our usual place -- Sushi King.. Waiting mei kwan..but can't get her..kinda worry..cos she come without permission..If anything goes wrong..Oh gosh..Really don't know what to do..Alvin too..Our little brother still on his way.. he went Chee Han's party last night. Bet it end late or well..Early in the morning..so he might be late.. we order miso soup and some food.. yun drink hot green tea..hehee..Same like me..cos i'm coughing.. The waiter 'tum' me 2 renew my sushi king's card..Sigh..Wasted 15 bucks 2 renew.. but they gave free calendar of year 2005 and teapot..heheee..so.. Still worth lar..When we finish our food..Alvin showed up with Douglas.. Douglas straighten his hair...Look a bit weird..heheeee.. and both of them got a job! they help 2 carry our stuff.. cos i bought a pair of high heels..bodyshop stuff..Perfume for Nat..we left sushi king and continue our shopping.. Have 2 buy a suitable outfit for Alvin for tonight event and nice dress for yun..mei kwan does not show up..She called for apologies cos she couldn't come..Well..Never mind.. i know she got her reason..so me and yun decided to waste our money..we didn't watch white chicks..and continue our shopping journey.. bought a shirt at Romp for Alvin..and pants from radioactive.. he will look smart with it.. after that..me and yun bought t-shirt at bodyglove..it look nice and sweet..and we got yun's dress for tonite at urban&co..i think we done a right thing.. i mean.. For not watching movie..Or else we got no time 2 buy things..heheeee...me, yun, Alvin and Douglas went for a 'talk' with some strangers..Sit down there..Get our free drinks and give some idea or comment bout their stuff.. i like the shopping complex idea..iz pretty cool..in touch,in sense,in sight..The badges are nice..The web are cool..Most of us think it will work..but the other idea.. i mean the MYSO idea..Full name is max your sense out.. not so attractive..is a bit lame and confusing..but because of this talk..we earn 20bucks.. i mean each of us get 20 bucks..heheee.. me & yun used the money to buy necklace..heheeeee....

Night..we went Nat's party..Well.. She look good tonight..i missed the chance 2 meet her ex..hehee.. Anyway..is her ex .. not mine.. :p so never mind.. but we left half way..cos rushing for other things..heheee.. we wait weil xuan at the posh lobby..we miss him so much.. ohhhh..gosh..heheeee... he still the same.. we took photo !!

After that we met Feng & Foong..Went papa chop mama grill and eat something.. My sudden silent scare feng..heheeee..funny..Stupid foong la..bully me..aikzz..but always la..i angry!! hmphh.. so order ice cuppucino..hey..i'm coughin but still drinking cold drinks.. heheee...i drank 2 & half glasses of ice cuppucino..foong dun let me drink half way..hmphh..he rampas ! Well..Don't care.. in the car..me & yun asked them 2 drop us at one utama..but they are so serious..Look so fierce..Scary!!!! hmmm.. Feng keep quiet..and Foong look so fierce and serious..aikzz..dunno why la..they don't want drop us there..Then we said we can follow them go snuker centre..but..they dun want..Say we wear till like that..hey..wat's the problem..Well.. we keep our mouth shut after that..cos they look so scary !!! arkkzz...on the way to dunno where..Foong asked Feng bring him home to get something.. Well.. he get us jacket..hmm..Yea.. We're cold..

i didn't sleep the whole night.. Talk on phone with foong..and SMS with feng.. yun and Alvin slept.. i watch Cinderella story.. not bad.. Like the phone..Look so 'chun'...
tired... aikzzz...

5 days before SPM

Crazy Nite

Today's mood : Happy

My darling *yun* come over and plan 2 stay till Monday. Parents and Bro, Sis not at home. Felt free..heheee..Long time dint sleep with Yun dee..tonite sure very late sleep wan.. Yun said Feng and Foong coming tonite..Bring us out wohhh..aikzz..at first i tot they were joking..But at night..hmphh..Seriously they're coming..ohhhm..Okay..pakat with kakak..hehe..Help her 2 buy reload coupon..and we go out 2 padang kota 'yum cha'.. they bought lollipop for us..hehee..Nice nice..after yum cha.. we went shell to buy something..Actually not so nice..cos i'm coughing and catch a flu..so..Most of the thing i can't eat..Such as chips..Cold drinks..Ice-cream..aikzz..i just bought sweet lorrr...Hi sour and fisherman's friend..But Foong bought ice-cream for me..My favorite ice-cream..Hagen-dazz strawberry flavor..hehee..Can't believe he actually let me eat.. Nowadays he's kinda strict 2 me..Dun let me eat fried things and cold drinks..so..Surprise that he bought ice-cream for me..Well..he paid everything..hmm..i dun feel so good la actually..cos we are the one who wanna buy..But end up he paid..Anyway..Cannot fight with him..he's a bit 'da Nan Ren Zhu Yi'.. so..he actually won't let girl pay ..aikkkzzz..hmmm...Dun care larrr.. heheeee.. As long as i got ice-cream and sweet... :p

we end up staying at my house watch TV...Both of them come over and watch with me and yun.. we watch 'the prince and me' well.. Half way.. cos.. iz kinda bored..so we changed vcd..Watch 'fast and furious'..Part one is not that good..i prefer part two.. '2fast2furious' wow..Love the car so so darn much..Feng keep disturbing me and yun by throwing pillow..Foong laugh..Sometimes help us..But that stupid..Play gameboy while we drinking soup..Felt cold so i get my jacket..But feng and foong..aikzzz..dunno wat the hell they thinking.. i got my jacket but yet they wanna higher the air-condo..hmmm..Stupid right...Anyway.. i noe la..iz for my own good..Dun wan me 2 get sick..But i am sick..so..i dun think iz a problem.. they leave at 4 in the morning..The first time guys come my house and stay till early in the morning..If my parents were here..i bet they'll kill me first..hehehe..i'm so naughty..But..Never mind la..Friend ma.. we just watch movie and chat and play only..heheheee...me and yun kinda worry feng..takut him kena marah by parents..But i think he's alright..heheee..foong dint go home..he straight away went to his cousin place i think.. aikzzz..But both of them halau me and yun 2 sleep... so... we be good girl.. Sleep till the second day...

4days before SPm..
well..i'm not sure izit four days before.. cos Feng's exam start on 4th November..
so.. Should be...6days before SPM

Relationship

Today..didn't go to school again..heheee.. never mind...
Read bout something.. well..is about love.. 'no apologies' giving definition about love...

What Is Love ?
Love is Patient and kind
Love is not jealous or boastful
Love is not proud or rude
Love does not demand its own way
Love is not irritable or hold grudges
Love does not support injustice
Love never gives up
Love endures through every circumstance

everyone got their own definition for love..nobody can said it is right or wrong..see things from different perspective..you'll get different result.. for me..love is not my life..but is part of it.. not only love between lovers..but families..friends..animals and so on..

5 days before SPM

Ryan Cabrera - True

Today.. Nicholas Ng Eng Seon's sweet 16!!!! happy buffday ~~
Didn't go to school again.. Stay at home.. Online ! Went Ryan's page..Found one song.. Called True.. not bad.. kinda nice and smooth.. and the lyrics..Meaningful too.. i knew this song all because of my pet sista *Sophie*..she's crazy over dis song..hahaaa..The lyrics suit her..Yea..Sort of..

lyrics :

i won't talk. i won't breathe

i won't move till you finally see

that you belong with me

you might think. i don't look

but deep inside in the corner of my mind

i'm attached to you

i'm weak. It's true

cause i'm afraid to know the answer

do you want me to ?

cause my heart keep falling faster

I've waited all my life. to cross this line.

to the only thing that's true.

so i will not hide. It's time to try

anything to be with you . All my life I've waited..

this is true.

dunno what happen to my health..Seems feeling worst..not better..aikzz..Wish to recover before Friday. hmphh.. i dun wanna be sick..My nose blocked..Hard to breathe..not won't breath *wink*.. Had a nightmare last night..Dream bout the past..Bout Sam, loong, fai they all.. Mostly Sam.. Waste almost one year time with him..so.. Consider.. The whole year i'm wasting and dreaming..Among all..he hurts me the most.. Till the max..But everything over..Now..Memories become my lesson..Reminding me not to do the same silly mistake..Girl can live without guy..no.. maybe i should say.. Nobody can't live without anyone..we live for ourselves..not for others..

6 days before SPM

Love Or Not

Today..shue yng's sweet 16..happy birthday !! and.. i did not go to school..cos i'm sick.. Stay at home.. he msg me 2 remind me eat, rest, eat medicine and ask something..My dear *yun* oso msg me.. Nobody here..Beside me, my computer, my TV, my photo album and lots.. Figure out something.. Or maybe i should say.. i think a lot..

actually, i don't know what i want now..i don't know what i have anyway..For me..Now..Is like..Blank..Blank paper without any words on it..Seems like i'm empty.. i dunno whether what feeling am i having right now..he's caring..and kinda sayang me..Compare 2 others.. Somehow there's somebody in my heart..Watanabe Kaito..For me..he's like impossible dream.. For the other one.. he's really sayang.. and give me one kind of feeling..Which is..Strong and secure..i think..i dunno..Nobody dare 2 force me 2 do something..maybe i shouldn't say force..Just..dunno why I'll simply follow his words..Without a doubt..no matter what he says.. Seems right and fact.. he said he doesn't want me always saying i'm alright or nothing in front of him..But does he know ? This is the way i protect myself from relying and showing i'm tough enough to handle things... But he's like uncover the real Sylvia..*sigh*

think about the past..That one..Consider my first..But iz really terrible..Because of him..i learn what is love..But at the same time..i know what is hurt..Because of him..i'm tough..i prevent myself from relying ppl..Stop myself from loving others..

conclusion i made.. i dunno whether should i believe again..

7 days before SPM

SICK again !!!

Today..Jia Wei's birthday!!! happy birthday boy ~ ..
12 of us in class.. i mean s4d..sigh..bored..teacher not teaching..dunno wat da point i am here.. hmphh.. mary juana went for audition..should be alright.. char, me and sophie stay in class.. taking photo and using computer.. felt so sick.. sleep in class til 3 something..





at night.. dinner with mary's family at karen's bf - kit's working place.. food ok ok only.. cos i'm having flu, fever and cough.. dunno what it taste actually.. sick.. aikzzz...

8 days before SPM

Happy Day

Feng, Yun, Crystal and Sally pick me up around 9.15am. The first time i meet Crystal & Sally. they seems nice to hang with especially Crystal..she's friendly, cute and funny. we had Ba Kut Teh for breakfast.hehee..bully feng together..enjoying! after that, we went feng house to wait for TC.

Drop crystal at her place before we go pyramid. bought movie ticket.. FACE.. korean ghost movie. after that, me and yun busy finding skirt and shoe for her to change.. aikzz..ma fan!!! met lionel, choi mun and pui yan. everyone seems fine and well-being. after that..we meet up guys at arcade centre.we played photo hunt and 11 balls..haha.. break record and all that.. feng and tc shocked seeing us crazy like wat ever...

foong and sien cam around 2.15pm. they rush here from KL. we had our lunch at Sushi King. Feng cannot eat wasabi wan! haha.. a bit then felt hot..stoopid.. hmphhh.. foong doesn't let me drink cold green tea..haihzz..everyone had cold green tea..only me.. hot wan..hmphhh.. after lunch.. we walk around at bum city then watch movie.. and again.. foong don't let me drink soft drink.. bought me mineral water only..we watch face.. walau.. kinda scary.. yun cried.. i'm so sorry.. in the cinema..i damn scare tc sit next to me.. luckily.. yun smart enough to ask him sit another seat.. ohhh.. goshhh.. yun safe my life !!!

after movie.. we went arcade centre again.. while yun, feng sien and foong playing daytona.. me go shooting.. aikzz.. high score 73 only.. not good.. not like last time deee.. hmmmm...
after that.. we take photo ohh.. hahaha.. happy happy ..

tonight.. raining. lighting appear up the sky is seriously beautiful.. it flash up there..
he copied the movie.. hehe.. use two question to change one answer..hahaa.. funny.. cute !

9 days before SPM

Meeting at Midvalley

Early morning wake him up..Then sleep again till he wake me up an hour later. Funny. Get prepared to go nat's primary school's carnival. freaky bored there. Nothing to do beside walking up and down..Here and there for more than few times..Primary kid seriously childish !! hahaaa.. Remind me my past.. Hehe.. Don't think much.. Relax only..heheee.. Don't know what is love.. Don't care wat is hurt.. But now ? Different case. Confuse bout love.. Scare of hurt..

after the carnival thingy.. We went midvalley for Leo prom night meeting.. Oh gosh.. This worst. i don't know single shit bout it but I'm sitting there with them.. Discussing.. hahaaa.. Met samantha, wae lern, kelvin.. some girls and la salle boys.. They're pretty used to it.. i guess they always organize something like this.
after the meeting.. We left. I'm so tired. Sleep from 2 something to 5 something..Wow.. Feel so good.. hahaha.. Right after that i received his call and few msgs.. hmphh.. Good timing *clap*

10 days before SPM

Dunk !!

We are okay dee.. Although I felt something wrong but at least better than yesterday..

early in the morning.. Help to set up the dunking machine and making flyers for tomorrow.. Everyone seems enjoying falling into the water..U-jun got wet first..Follow by tristen, kai young, min ern and alex. They look so happy inside the tank. Primary kid spend hell lot money to make them wet ! hahahaaa.. Char and Sophie joined..They're wet at last. And we found out secondary are damn 'kiam siap' hmphhh...

Japanese students visited our school.. Well..Some of them really cute.. But some..hmmmm.. i dun think their prettier than Mel or Jo. They look more mature and older than their age.. But uniform kinda cute.. And nice..

11 days before SPM

Last Day Exam

I am seriously down like shit man. What's wrong with him? And me too.. I feel like crying..Tears hanging in my eyes socket.. Just because of his unconcerned ? I don't know. He said he's alright. But by the way he replied.. I know there must be something wrong..I suddenly felt left out in the old by him. He never treat me like this before. I just can't accept it in the mean time.. Wish to know what actually happen.. But I know if he doesn't want to tell.. I will not know *moody*

feng and yun fetch me from school and went a&w. chat with her using hokkien..hehee..feng dun understand..She asked me still want to go the trip anot.. I seriously dunno..She said I should learn to let go..Yea.. I know and I understand..But it's a hard job.. After chatting with him for sometimes.. I know I'm really going into it..I tried to control myself from relying him..But it juz can't work at the moment.. I care for him.. that's the conclusion I made..

actually I do felt left out nowadays.. dunno what happen to me.. period of unbalance hormones? hmphhh..maybe..Who knows ? Do I like to be alone ? I also dunno Dee.. Sometimes.. Loneliness help to figure out something. But the feeling isn't so good..
exam over.. yeayy!!!!

12 days before SPM

Depressed

Today.. Only art paper..and it started at 2.20pm.. so i'm free from morning 8am to 2.15pm.. hmmm..Having fun..i mean..Playing and chatting with classmate..not bad.. Joee..Min Ern..Nic pierce their tongue..it look cool..but i know..i'm not going to do that..Think bout something today.. i dunno what's in my mind..well...he...She..they..we..bla..i dunno..i'm lost..

Young playing a fool..Send msg to him..Saying i love him and wanna couple with him..well..Even not me send the msg..but..at first i really want to know his reaction..Somehow..the more i hope..the more the answer disappoint me..and i understand..he treat me as a good friend that can chat around..Play around..Talk..To contest with..i'm just a friend of his..So..Apparently..nothing will happen between us.. Actually i really wanna tell my dear about this..but i know..She'll say something..heheee..So.. i just keep it to myself..and let her find out by reading this...

Evening...She called..From the conversation..i'm sure..he like her.. Told ya..right?! heheee.. Anyway.. i dunno what's in my mind.. Why am i depressed? i dunno..maybe.. i still need times to bear with it..

13 days before SPM

Day of Aberration

Today , i'm so muddle-headed..i dunno what am i doing actually..well..not 2 say completely dunno but almost there..Today's moral and English paper..Both..i don't think i did will..but i tried my best ? well.. Nope..i dunno what am i writing..dunno wat am i trying to say..hahaa..Weird right? well..maybe.. 2 more days exam over..i'm kinda happy and over joy.. ahahaha.. it may be a reason..Who knows..

He called during recess time..Stupid fella..Woke up at 6.15am but dun dare 2 wake me up..blurr boy..Anyway..he's going to buy a newphone..my phone..i mean Nokia 7610 but mandarin version..hmmm..Unfair !! i want to type and read mandarin but..too bad my phone does not support this function.. Never mind.. i'll curi his phone..Send those cute cute nice nice thing to myself.. hahahah...

Oh my goshh.. my class..haha.. So funny.. almost all coughing during exam..Abnormal lar... is like.. When i'm doing my paper.. i can hear.. Coughing .. From here and there.. heheheeee funny..

14 days before SPM

Sick

Today, I stay at home the whole day.. Didn't go to school. Why ? Cos i'm lazy of coz..Since no paper..no point going to school right ? hmphhh.. Early in the morning disturb him..hehee.. Wake him up..Tot he's going SP too..but i was wrong..he's still sleeping..Oops... he sound angry..and i was like.. Um..ohhh..Sorry..hehee..Better let him sleep back again.. Or else..he's going to kill me.. but after two hours..he called..and chat for a while.. eheheee..dat lazy pig..Lazy to eat!!! oh my goshhh.. halau him 2 eat hehehee.. *evil*... Anyway.. i like to talk to him early in the morning.. he's like lil kid.. blurr blurr like that.. heheee

Ehmmm..i think i'm sick.. Coughing like mad.. arhhggg.. Hate that much...

Chat with yun... Long time didn't talk on phone with her dee.. hehee.. Chat lot of thing.. Dear.. She think too much deee.. Me and him will only be friends larr.. he treat me nice because i'm a girl .. Kay ?!

15 days before SPM

Love Very Dearly

Watched a movie.. Really touching..and from the story..i know..the guy really love the gal..Even he always bully her..but whatever he done all because of her..To let her feel better..Let her had the best..he choose not to let her know he's dying..To keep the best image.. Best memory for her.. Even when he dead..he prefer not to have a gravestone..So..Nobody knows his death..

nothing to write?? Nope.. but no mood to write... hmphhhh...

16 days before SPM

Bored Saturday

At Genting..Own apartment..Inside my room..Wondering..am i falling in love?? well.. the answer is.. 50% vs 50%.. i'm not so sure..Or maybe i should say.. i don't want to make sure.. i don't know why..and don't want to know why..kinda confusing myself..

Met Karen at First World.. Played Para-para 2remix machine..Rock Fever 3 and Daytona with cousin and Daniel..well..not too happy..but stil okay larr.. kinda enjoy while playing..Having fun.. Long time didn't touch rock fever 3 and Daytona deee.. not good deee... aikzzz..Sad case... Den we chat and going back apartment..Preparing for night dinner at club house...

Dinner suck !! Stupid uncle and aunt..Don't know how to sing..but yet they went up and sang.. Please larr.. Torturing everyone..hmphhh..Don't know English..but sang English song..oh my goshh.. 'boi ta han' ..

miss him and her.. aikzzz.. not good sign.. am i bisexual lol

17days before SPM

Felt Down

Today..Something unhappy happen..Last night.. i hung up his call..not purposely..but still.. iz my fault..and iz really rude 2 hang up ppl's phone call.. he angry..i suppose he hate me too..dunno why.. Felt panic..This morning..msg him 2 wake him up..but..no reply..So.. my hypothesis iz.. he angry me..Afternoon..Still no reply..Means..he hate me deee..am i a bit too sensitive..well..maybe i am..but dunno why..i felt uncomfortable..the whole day..he never treat me like dat b4.. i felt scared..Unsecured..Down..Lonely..

bored in school.. Paper started at 11.30.. before that..i'm juz like useless idiot..Walking around the school..Looking at my phone.. Wish there's msg from someone..but..Sad to say.. no.. nothing..

talk to Nat.. She analyze something.. Me and her.. there're 'persamaan' between us.. yea.. maybe she's right.. i felt empty to think bout it actually..dunno what am i thinking the whole day..juz blurr..and seems un-awake.. but who cares..cos i don't care...

told my dear *yun* bout him angry at me.. She said he's important for me.. is he ? well.. i dunno..maybe yes..Long time no this kind of stupid feeling.. i am afraid of this.. Always hurt me badly..i dun want to admit..yea.. he's kinda important.. i dunno why..but..i noe..Somehow..There's at least a reason..but i seriously dun wan to rely on anyone..i wanna be tough lady.. Mentally tough..Physically?? i dunno.. at least.. If i'm tough.. Nobody dare to hurt me.. i won't get hurt.. my heart won't break again..i'm fear of that..iz really scary..

he called.. Midnight..Say sorry..i don't think is his fault.. in fact.. i think is mine..Whatever and whoever's fault..Doesn't matter anymore..cos..we're ok..juz like last time..Talking on phone and msging..Really happy..and feel better..is he giving me hope?? no no no.. Sylvia Chang..Don't be too sensitive and don't think so much.. he won't like you Kay...You are juz friend !!! FRIEND !!!

18 days before SPM

Truth

Nothing special happen..beside..Malay exam postpone to next Friday..hahaa..i'm kinda happy.. cos i'm not well prepared yet.. Especially the novel..Bout history..not that i dunno anything bout that lame bored book..but..juz i'm not interested to go deep inside..i can fall asleep easily juz by reading the first page !!!! Anyway..there're some issue brought out by the novel..and iz touching.. Like..Women robbed by the komunis and they've been force to remove their shirt and stand naked in the public..What the hack..Torturing..komunis should have juz kill them..but instead of killing..they tortured them..Using their gun poke women's' breast..oh my goshh..Can't stand that!!! iz really cruel ~ hmphhh.. and other incident where saibun's family killed by them.. hey.. Women and kids are innocent !!! How can they juz killed without a reason~ hmphhh... iz so so cruel ~!

After school.. i stay in my room the whole day.. Reading a mandarin novel..the story is nice.. iz about love..hahaa..yea.. and also truth..Do everyone live in falsehood or truth ? Do you ever wonder.. Maybe you're living with a lie.. Or lied by someone you trust the most ? yea.. Nobody know what's going on actually... we born to learn.. To try.. To fail..To cry..To happy..To love..To hate.. and lots... Everyone in this world will lie..Somehow..they juz dunno that's consider a lie..

lie iz not a big deal actually.. Individual can simply tell a lie.. but the problem is.. Will it harm someone you actually care ?? well.. Conclusion is.. Think before you lie :p

19days before SPM

Friends

Hey Isa Ghani!!! happy buffday ~~! hahahaa.. Isa's sweet 16..but poor babe..buffday during exam week.. :p well.. in school.. Gang bang by guys.. hahaaa.. Pity him larrr... Anyway.. Isa's nice man..he's friendly..Cute..Horny as well..Smart.. and hard-working..Sociable..Caring..and can speak damn good English..iz pure English..not broken like ME.. hmphhh...

Read dear *yun* blog..She got the point..Couple nowadays is not symbolic of love anymore..iz juz like a game..there're many factor causes an individual misunderstood the feeling of love.. Nobody can explain the actual meaning..we're just giving a try.. juz like gambling..we don't know what's the card we got in hand.. Without trying.. You'll never win.. but if you give a try.. at least.. There's a chance 2 win.. i prefer friends more important for now.. Sometimes if there's friendship problem.. iz easier to settle compare to relationship's problem..To live an ordinary life as a common teenager..now i prefer friendship more than love..hahaa.. For me.. Family will always be the first.. Plus my dear *yun*.. After that.. Education.. and Friends...and other social life... Love's part of my life.. but not whole...hahaa..

Ikan Bilis called..Cried again..She always cry because of him.. iz that worth?? i don't think so.. Aikzz..dunno how 2 advice her.. Better keep my mouth shut...

Got a weird dream.. dream of him...Funny..Miss him really much.. Saw all my friends in my dream.. Vincent...zheng li..mei xin.. mei kwan..kah yin.. kar mun..sook yee...alvin.. bla bla bla.... lot larrr...

Pass by a shop ... Called... " What The Fish ?" .. Selling fish .. hahaa.. What a cute name...

20 days before SPM

Be Clear

Second day.. exam i mean.. tiring.. aikzz.. what to do ? stil got so many days to go.. hmphhh.. i'm suffering.. iz killing me !!! aukzzz.. anyway..still have to sit for it..and get result..only with good result.. i can ask my dad for.. things i want..hahahaa.. *evil*

Finally i'm distinct what is in my mind.. i admit i still got feelings on watanabe kaito..but in the mean time.. i have to admit..yea.. i like him..for his caring and be very fond of me.. reluctantly.. i know we're impossible..juz like me and watanabe kaito..it's unrequited love..maybe..remain the same.. as a friend..everyone will feel better.. more comfortable..same time..i don't want my friend felt i'm betraying her..i hate that..everyone noe i hate betrayer.. so.. i shouldn't be a betrayer..

my dear *yun* msg me triumphantly.. naughty gal iz not going 2 school tomorrow..how lucky..her exam's over !!!! hmphh..but mine stil going on..and there's one more week for me 2 suffer.. oOo no... aikzzz.. cahaya damn good larr... arrange lotsa activities for the students.. not like my school..blurr blurrr..concert only..and stil have to study.. preparing for form five.. stupid.. cannot relax summore have to study!!! wat the... 'good' idea.. hmphhh..bad bad...

21 days before SPM

Exam Started

Final exam 2 started..Have 2 struggle for 10 days..Sniff..hmphhh.. 2day's Malay paper 1 and history papers..History iz kinda hard..Malay..i don't think iz good too..Anyway..i tried my best right? hmphh..So..Daddy mummy dun blame me! ehheeee..

chat with Carmen..She changed a lot..More mature..but not like last time..i mean..i think something stuck in her mind..She's not that happy like the past..i suppose..She's in trouble.. but i know she doesn't feel like telling..Anyway.. Wish she'll be fine..

actually.. i'm not sure i like him anot..well..he's nice..Caring..and kinda sayang me..but is that the feeling..i wondering..

read a book..a novel actually..hah..Exam started but i stil read those stuff..Weird !! k.. Anyway..Back 2 my point.. the novel's base on friendship and relationship.. There's one part.. the guy facing this problem... His best friend and he himself..Falling in love with a girl at the same time..now my question..Will guy continue admiring the girl if they know their friend also having the same feeling to the girl ? hmphhh.. i asked my friends..they said it is hard to answer..but the choice is on the girl.. well i know that.. the girl choose.. but wat i wanna know is.. Will their friendship break bcos of this ? hmhhhh..For me and some of my friends.. well.. we said.. We'll never couple with friend's ex-bf or current lover..maybe i should say admirer.. but the thing is.. How if the guy and the girl seriously want each other badly ? we can't deny there're embarrass seeing ur friends with your exes...but.. Why not juz take it?? *wondering*

22days before SPM

Funny Waiter

hahaa..Did something seriously funny 2day..Went Imbi Palace with family ,aunt, uncle, grandma and friends..Imbi Palace's a nice place for breakfast.. i mean 'dim sum' and dinner..Food quality 'ichiban' heheee..There's a waiter..well..i don't even know his name..but he's freaky cute..and nice..noe him cause he always help me when i said i dun wanna eat much..He'll make my plate small or food less..hehee..Nice nice..but one thing..If my dad asked him 2 switch another channel while i'm watching MTV..He'll follow!! How dare he.. hmphh..Anyway..2day i decided 2 play a lil joke..well..yea..i'm playful..He *evil*.. i keep on staring at him..Wherever he went..i juz stare at him..hahaa..he look so uncomfortable..and..he blush!!! Dates so cute..So funny..i'm so naughty.. *wink* .. Before we left..i saw him standing behind the glass door..Staring at me!! hey..How can he follow!!! my brother laugh like hell.. well.. dat's a bit naughty .. too..

after that..we went swimming at Tropicana Club House..While daddy teaching sis swim..i teach my brother how 2 swim well..hey.. Me not bad wan lerhh..heheee..Swim for like..ermmm...Half an hour..i got up and went to the sauna room..oh my.. i love this place damn much..iz juz so hot..and no1 know me..hahaa..Enjoy my sauna...but there's a bitch..Damn stupid larr..Go increase the temperature til damn high..walahhhh...Very very da hot..Stupid..but i stil can tahan .. hehee.. Sweating like raining..haha..Finally that bitch cannot stand the heat and left..Yeah.. i won!!! After sauna..i went the room beside..Which is steaming room..oOOo..Water vapor around the room..So blurr..hehe..but iz hotter than the sauna..oh my goshhh..Stay there for like 5 minutes then i left 2 take a shower..hehee..After sauna and steaming..my face look so nice..Blush...hahaaa..Cute cute..heheeee...

TOMORROW EXAM START !!!!!
23 Days before SPM

First Time...

whole day studying..Gone crazy..ahhaaa.. Exam's coming..Monday..oh goshh..Worried? well, no actually..Wish 2 finish it..After that..relax man~~ yohhoooo...

afternoon..Play PS2 with brother..Trying 2 break volleyball.. I mean the games record..but iz freaky hard..Last stage deee.. Still haven achieve..Sigh.. Mission incomplete..Sad sad.. Waiting parents 2 come home..Studied history like mad..10 chapter iz not easy 2 memories..wat the hell.. What's da point 2 study history that related 2 Islam? Since i'm not Muslim or beragama Islam..hmphhh..Wasting my time right.. duhhh... but yet.. Have to study. .For exam :(

at night..Went mc d with cousin brother, brother and sister..hahaa.. Damn funny..Met one fella there..he seriously look like Loong.. That fella..Long time no c him dee..Miss him??well.. no.. I suppose..juz..kinda curious how's his life nowadays..and his brother..no doubt he's nice fella.. On the way home..Cousin brother let me drive his manual car.. in fact.. dis is my first time.. I mean.. yea.. I know how to drive auto..iz freaky easy.. but I don't know anything bout manual..hehee.. Damn funny.. the engine keep 'mati' .. Everyone in car laugh like hell.. heheheee.. Anyway..i'll learn and master it !! hmphhh.. i can do it.. cos i must get my driving license before February.. This is my first mission for year 2005..

24 days before SPM ..

Pressure

Exam next monday..oOo no..left Saturday and Sunday for me 2 study last minute *wink* .. teacher told me.. to get good result, is not a wish..is an affort..without that we will not succeed.. i think he's right..and am i going 2 follow what he said? yea.. obviously!! hehehee.. he said i bring pressure on myself..did I ? well, i don't know bout that.. don't feel anything..nowadays, lotz thing happen..consider lose one's bearing..Relax..i'm afraid..well not me actually.. he afraid and worried i'll blank out during exam ... will i ? huhhh.. hope this won't happen.. or else.. i really.. don't know wat am i going 2 do next..

Syaza came back..happy *smile* long time no see her..damn miss her..anyway..she come back for.. like 10 minutes..gave me and char a big warm hugged.. she seems enjoying her life..i mean now.. she consider holiday..oOo my.. hmmm.. jealous!!! hehehee.. anyway.. she's back .. at least.. for 10 minutes..now..who's coming back next? cher jeen ? elia ? or... haziq ? hahaaa.. wait and see !!! hmmmm....

miss my dear *yun* so damn freaky much.. sighhh... *sob sob* wish exam fast fast over.. then she can come over.. ehheeee.. waiting for that day !! hmphhh...

something kinda weird happen...well..maybe i'm too sensitive..'he'- A.M givin me one feeling..not that kind of feeling larhh.. iz.. i feel.. something is going to happen soon.. he joke 2day..asking me 2 be his gal..well..i wish that really a joke..for me...he...is my friend..that's all..he's.. not a good boyfriend.. i don't want some1 really negative minded and not sayang me.. well.. maybe i shouldn't say that.. i mean.. he does sayang me.. but..when i'm down.. when i need some1 2 be with.. i know he'll not be the one..he's always in bad mood or negative minded..


25 days before SPM ...

Thanks For Believing

2day's the most stressful day..everything seems 2 be negative side..don't really know wat's going on..but at least i know..i'm alright..much better..can feel my friend's caring.. and trustworthy..knowing my teacher's concern and understanding..izn't that cool ? well..maybe..anyway that's what i thought larrr...

watanabe kaito..thanks for understanding..thanks for believing me..from the moment i got that news..first thing 'pop up' in my mind is.. do you believe me...i'm really afraid you'll listen wat the rumours said..til you reply me.. " i believe you from last year.. don't hink and care too much..not worth 2 be down for ppl who dun believe you.." when i got those msg.. i seriously happy.. *touching* ... as long as you believe in me..yun believe in me..some friends believe in me..that's enough.. enough for me 2 store the power 2 stand up..well..you're seriously the guy i really into last time..now.. i understand you..i know we're friends..and..good friendship between will be more but not less..

final exam coming...aikzz...pressure larrr..damn scare...hmphhhh....
26 days before SPM.. gam ba teh !!!!

Betrayer

Nothing weird happen..beside..i'm freaky tired..hehee..and..hilmi's case..Sigh..dunno wat's wrong with him..he's totally diff from beginning of d year..yea..Everyone changed a lot..but.. wat I feel is he's changing 2 be selfish and don't care bout classmate's feeling..hmmm..Can't blame the others calling him betrayer..Anyway..Wish he'll change his attitude juz like wat he promise at his apologies msg.. *smile*

Finally..I know..and I found out..the betrayer !!! Hate betrayer hell lots.. wat's wrong with him ? Complaining me in front of my friends? Who he think he is?? Buzz off larrr..most of them don't like him Kay..stupid big mouth.. For me.. not that I don't like him.. Sometimes his idiotic attitude seriously annoying..but yet I NEVER say a single insulting or backstabbing word behind...mayb i did mention i don't like the attitude or watever..but not as much as 2 jerk your image..but wat he done 2 me? is he trying to make my friendship with my frens blow off and my image gone?? all becoz of those 'friendly' complain and comment? Please larr.. What I done make him hate me til maximum ?? Damn tired of all dis peeved stuff.. he is seriously not a gud fren, a gud soulmate at all.. stupid ex schoolmat..and his heart even hideous..Apparently i'm disparaging him !!!!!! hey you !! You're damn fake ~~ poseur..Sly and asinine failure !!! what are you trying to do?? chs ppl..most of them don't wanna talk to me anymore..enough??happy?? please lar kay.. after everything.. i tot we can be frens again..but now?? i seriously don't know.. and i'm freaky confuse bout it...

*phew...* feel better after scolding..yea.. I feel good now ~~ heheheee.. aikzz..Last episode of *aqua swims* if i'm not wrong.. Damn nice..cos happy ending.. I luv happy ending wan..heheee.. This drama series shows lots..Relationship between family..Couple..Friends..How a impediment person face problem..How 2 solve problems..and.. Swimming skills..hahaha.. Obviously impossible 2 swim like 'Evil's Crystal' or 'Teen's Rain' but.. iz a nice show..heheheeee ..


*sob sob* exam coming soon.. Sigh..Can feel the pressure..hmphhh.. Next Monday exam !!!! aouchhh.... good luck for me!! Myself !! and I !!! heheheee...

Spider

Today's Wah Boon's birthday!!! happy buffday to him..heheheee..

seriously normal day..stil the same thing repeat and repeat..wake up..bath..had my breakfast..school..after school..tuition..aikzzz..bored man!! well.. anyway.. exam iz coming..hahhaa..so..tuiton seriously help me lotz..but guess what?? stupid teacher's meeting for 2 hours..me and friends waited 2 hours 2 start tuition..hmphhh.. on the way back..big spider on window..front window which is my seat!! hey.. iz SPIDER !!!! and iz scary larhhh..stoopid jiunn meng and butterfly..go and open d window..try 2 let the spider come in..oh my goshhh..i damn scared!! dunno why.. dunno the reason..but i juz simply.. takut lahh!! wat to do.. hmphhh...unlucky..let them noe i takut lipat oso.. die lorrr..hehehee.. malu malu *blush*

well.. teacher set my target for this upcoming exam..for economy.. at least 95% and commerce at least 90%.. oh goshh..iz a bit too high ?? well.. i will try my very best 2 do it..this is cinch..for me..i will do it hahahaa.. i believe i can..heheee...

miss yun freaky muchieee..sighhh...can't wait exam fast fast over..den call her 2 come my house *wink* yea...miss her so much..well..he told me bout something going on..i mean.. something bad..something that will spoiled my name..now i get what he mean..anyway..i'll becareful..thanks him so much..can't believe 'he' that kind of ppl.. insidous guy !!! luckily i knew ...by now.. or else.. i will face something agony...

Not My Job

Nothing out of ordinary happen 2day..i mean..to me..2day's Zarif's birthday..classmates gangbang him..sympathy him..hahahaa..and Tristen too..his hand even injured..i mean..iz small case lar..but stil..hurt..

i'm really unhappy at night..daddy scolded me..i am not sure whether iz my fault or wat..i'm just telling what i feel..maybe at the wrong time but stil..i'm just trying 2 let him know something, juz wanna 2 convey my feeling..i told him i don't want to have a part-time job..what i mean is..helping my sister 2 finish her homework..hello..i'm taking spm next year..what i request is..next year..i'm not going 2 help her 2 finish her homework..not that i won't teach my sister..iz juz that..i felt tired and pressure..i got my own work..but yet everyday i have 2 finish my sister's homework..i'm not sure whether she seriously dunno how 2 do..or juz because she knew i'll finish it..she knew i'll do it for her..that's y she take things for granted..i seriously felt oppression..iz not a fistful job.. well.. yea.. i can help her..but doing her homework..hell no man..i'm tiring 4 all that shit.. hey..dat's not my job right?? i don't know how 2 explain to my dad anyway..iz juz..stress off..i hate that hell..he yelled at me..juz because of this?? well.. i know i'm the eldest..i suppose 2 be responsible 2 my sister and brother..but hey.. i didn't say i won't help..and..if she pay attention in class.. i am sure she can do all her work by herself.. excuse muahh.. she's only standard 3.. how hard can the work be?? daddy been thinking bout my sister.. my sister.. my sister.. but me?? i'm also your daughter kay.. and i'm spm student.. what u expect??yea.. i got hell plenty of time 2 finish my work and also your lovely daughter's ? i'm not heroin..please larr..

hell not happy.. sad ?? no.. i dun think so.. but.. yeahhh..seriously moody

Face the Truth

This morning he wake me up at 7am,cause i'm having tuition at 8am. I seriously damn happy 2 receive his call early in the morning. The main reason is he remembered! he kept his promise to wake me up this morning. I thought he will forget everything since last night he's moody and went out with his cousin in the mid-night. But it turns up he stil kept his promise and called me. I dunno how to describe the feeling when i received his call..but i know..i'm in a good mood.. well, at least..this morning..i'm in a good mood..hehehe *wink*

After tuiton..met him on net..he sounds moody..and yea..he admit he's down..for no reason..goddamnit..wat's wrong with him??after that..he went to his friend's house i suppose..but when i msg him..well yea..no reply..thought he might be busy or sleeping.. yea.. should be..but i stopped msg him since.. he does not reply my msg..i dun 1 keep msging til he felt i'm as 'fan' as the girl..i don't want to be like her..that's y..2day..the whole day..i'm holding my phone..waiting 2 received his msg..but the truth tell me..i'm doing something useless..he does not msg me..well..this is the first time he doesn't reply my msg..to tell the truth..i'm kinda worried..i'm afraid something might happen to him..but..i stopped myself from thinking all those silly thought..2day..i realise..day without his msg..without his call..iz kinda bored..and..lonely.. maybe i'm used to it.. i mean..since he's calling and msging nowadays..so suddenly like that..maybe..i juz can't turn it over in a second..even my darling *yun*'s there for me..msging me..talk 2 me..i admit it helps but..stil..not enough to fill my loneliness...i should learn to accept it..learn to live with loneliness..maybe..if i did that..i'll feel better...

Mich worried bout me..yea..after reading my blogs..she realize..i seriously fear of loneliness.. she asked me not 2 act happy if i'm not..be true to myself.. yea..she's right..no point for me 2 act in front of my friends..but..i dun dare to face the truth..truth is always cruel..yea..anyway..today..i'm stil laughing..but i know..when i'm laughing..inside me..was like..nothing...hmphh..i felt empty..i dunno why..and i dunno how 2 explain..iz juz like..a dead body without any feelings..no.. i got feelings..at least i felt empty..i felt nothing left with me..nobody's beside..dunno why nowadays i felt i'm loner..full of loneliness.. i hate that feeling..iz.. simply scary and.. i dun like..i felt left out..feel i'm always alone..especially when he and she didn't msg me..call me..or even..blahhh.. dunno wat am i trying 2 say.. helll yea.. control wei...chill..muz be cool..i can handle it.. i believe i can control myself..i can stand it.. right.. yea.. muz believe my ability..well.. it probably need sometimes..but.. i suppose i can do it...

Lonely Saturday

today..lonely day for me..parents not at home..siblings not at home..left me & my maid..received tweety's msg this morning..she..said something kinda weird..well, at least for me..iz weird..she's really sick..crazy over a guy..dat doesn't like her..everyone know that the guy's trying 2 ignore her..but why can't she realize dat and give up? she likes him for 8 months already..if the guy seriously got tiny bit feeling toward her..it consider worth .. but.. he doesn't has any feeling beside friend.. what's the point she wait for? i asked her.. she said.. she know he's the guy she's waiting for..she needed him.. well.. hey!! i mean..how old are we?? 16 only..what you expect at this age? ever lasting love?? not to say impossible..but the chances is 0.9% to hav a ever lasting relationship right now.. i don't mean we can play a fool..no need to take it serious..but..yea..control ourselves right?? dun take it TOO serious..we're 16..for now.. still got long time to go..at this age..relationship might be 1 of our memory..she's wasting too much time for 1 memory..1 hopeless memory..

this morning..he called..chat for while..he's really cute..and nice..i know..i'm not taking 100% serious on this kind of puppy love..but at least.. i put some serious feeling..i know what i want.. and i know how to control myself..i'm pretty sure bout this.. i can do it.. i can handle it.. if i want to. my dear *yun* said she felt the same way wat feng told huan..well..don't give me hopeless wish..i cannot take it..for me.. yea.. have to admit.. i ONLY like those who got the potential to like me and love me.. i dunno whether he's the 1 or not..but i know.. how i feel right now.. he gave me one kind of feeling that everyone is looking for.. the sense of secure..sometimes..he can be lil boy..like baby boy..but sometimes..he can be hell mature..yea..of cos.. he's elder than me.. of cos mature than me..this is the fact..but..he's really cute...

felt lonely the whole day..exam coming..yea..doing revision on moral and economy..but..to tell the truth..not really concentrating on what am i studying..suddenly..the feeling came suddenly.. i felt lonely..yea..no reason..but it scare me..suddenly got that kind of feeling..nobody in this world seems to care me..i'm..juz a body without spirit..maybe..i think too much..but.. it seriously scary.. wanted 2 call him..but..at last..i stopped myself..keep reminding myself..not to relay on some1..too much..iz a bad sign..

checking my old note book..found out..some old notes...remind me of him..watanabe kaito..do i stil like him? i dunno..maybe.i'm not..maybe..still a lil bit.. i don't want to think bout it..he's a really nice man..cool..sporty..good-looking..gentle..friendly..cute..caring..but one thing..he's not a good boyfriend..but..he's the one i seriously like before..in this year.. year 2004..maybe our timing is not good.. for him.. friends and sports always more important than love..for me.. even love is not that important..but.. i stil.. consider.. love is something important in my life.. it is not everything..but.. it is something...

Abnormal School-day

Today..nothing special..In school..Hell bored!!! and kinda abnormal I mean..My teachers..First..We dunno wat the hell Ms Foo's teaching..Bout some Mozart effect and listening and healing..hmphhh..I can say that..I couldn't catch it at all..Too bad. After that, Mr Rama seems pissed off. Even Mr Selvam nagging us..humphhh.. wat's wrong with them? The whole day.. Only Mr Tana was teaching..cos..Even Mr Hew is missing in action..Weird weird..Only 17 ppl came to school..Other's..All skipped school..Lazy bump..oOo yea..Today's Feng & Foong's spm moral trial examination..and also Feng's driving exam..hahaa.. Good luck to them anyway..i'm waiting for my turn..Taking undang-undang on November..Wait til next year..My birthday..den can get driving lesson..hahaaaaa..yea..Damn excited..ehheheeee

stupid isa,minern and nic kicked my ass!! hmphhh.. So damn bad la.. But they're really nice and funny.. hehehee.. Too bad.. They probably leaving next year.. Sigh.. Leave me alone!!!hmmm.. So damn freaky bad.. Will miss them hell lots... aikkzz.. kaiyoung,joy,isa,Brian,ash etc.. All leaving.. Sigh sigh.. So bad la..Why wanna leave wohh.. well.. I know Sri KDU sux..Mm..Maybe not dat bad la.. Juz.. too much homework..too much assignment..kinda preassure...mmm.. beside dat.. should be ok right??heheheee...

i got some strange feeling.. well.. maybe i'm too perasan or wat.. i felt dat he.. might got feelings on.. me.. mmm..ehrh.. mayb only la.. he's beeen so caring.. well.. yea.. it can be a friendly sign... i'm juz telling wat i feel. during class.. wondering wat he doin.. heheee.. and.. right after school.. he msg me.. mm.. when i stepped out the class.. good timing huh?? anyway.. i dun dare to ask... yun and kean said i'm dumb.. well.. i'm not stupid.. not silly.. i juz.. dunno wat to do.. iz easy for them 2 said..but... when things happen on the person..u seriously will panic.. dats wat i'm having now..

stupid foong.. try to scare me.. stupid stupid stupid..

Afraid of Loneliness

my first day writing something (for me, this things consider my on9 diary)..kinda nervous and dunno wat to write..well..should be normal..relax..yea.. today.. thursday.. 30th September..nothing happen actually..beside..well, yea..one of my fren lazy 2 go 2 school..and..i'm kinda sick..well..not sick of him..iz seriously not feeling 'so' well..

I asked him a.. Weird question..I asks " what are you afraid of??" I should know..For a guy..They might afraid of losing face,friends..But when I think bout me myself.. I found out..Actually..i'm not afraid of insects..not afraid of dark, ghost..well.. Maybe i'm a bit scare.. But.. What I know is.. I seriously afraid of being lonely..I hate the feeling..nothing in dis world iz more scary than the feeling -- > loneliness..well.. at least.. For me it's most scary thing in d world.. Sometimes..not physically lonely..But..Mentally..

nowadays..I keep questioning myself..Am I falling in Luv again..well..Maybe not dat fast..not Luv..But definitely not normal feeling like wat I treat others..iz more than that.. not brother and sister feeling..But..well.. I dunno how to express...But wat I know iz..He's giving me dat kind of feeling..warm..sweet..comfortable..sense of secure..happy..well.. I duno wat am I talking about..it seems like normal fren can give me dis kind of feeling..But I know there's something going on in my heart..I dun dare 2 know. I dun dare 2 ask.. in my mind.. I think he's trying 2 be friendly..and iz juz bcos he treat me as a friend..I shouldn't so 'perasan'.. should not think so much..yea..we're friends..

but..wat a shocked!!! he seems can sense my feeling.. well.. not to be so sensitive..ya right..But..he noes i'm down..he noes i'm not happy..hmphhh..not much ppl can do dat.. well.. yea..my lovely sister *yun* can do dat..But.. no 1 can sense that beside yun.. But.. But.. he did it..i'm so shocked..But I make up my mind.. calm down..iz juz.. guessing.. intelligent guess..nothing special.. right?? :-) giving hope 2 myself iz not a good thing.. it may seriously hurt..

I dun wan to be a bitch.. I feel i'm a bitch actually.. I love.. well.. maybe not love.. k.. I used the world *like*.. I like my friend's favourite guy ?? oh goshhh.. wat kind of fren am I ?? selfish bitch? I dun want to be like dat..But.. I juz can't help falling.. i'm afraid someday..i'll be damn hell hurt..cos I know.. I know we got no chance at all !!!!! But.. I juz dunno why.. my heart jumppin so fast...

because of him.. and my darling *yun*.. I dun feel lonely.. at least.. now.. i'm not lonely..thanks so much..

very unlucky..today co-co time..team mate challenge me..:p they very nice and funny..but not fair..1 vs 10 ppl..almost take away my life..iz really happy and fun 2 play with them..althought I lost..but yet..we remain good relationship..they're improving.. slow.. but.. atleast there's improvement.. Especially sandra, trisha and jia lik.. joee too.. they can be my partner !! heheee.. but very unlucky my leg injured.. bit pain.. the skin come out dee.. no blood.. but.. cannot walk properly.. too bad... aikzz..