Richmond

it's gettin` colder and colder~ and it's been raining the past few days.

it's been quite sometimes since i last got enough sleeps. anyhow, i manage to slept for at least 11 hours from 28th to 29th before going anywhere. busy week for all of us, me, sam, ken and other rmit fellows. madly participating in our assignments and progress test or whatever you call it. however, i'm free after wednesday noon, glad i had chosen the right timetable. or else people will see my skin turning to be having xeroderma or grey-whitey hair growing like i just done my highlight. cut the crap. i had a great day at richmond. woke up around 11 in the morning got ready in an hour and left melbourne city to richmond by cab. roaming and wondering around the food court deciding what to take for lunch and so i saw this cafe, cafe krifi, it's at the corner next to mc donald or kfc. they have good environment, comfy. instead of being dull siting in the indoor, i went to the outdoor area. it's not exactly outdoor as it's divided by a top to floor glass leaving the top a vacant space. the main point is fresh air is been able to flow freely. ordered ice mocha, garlic bread as entree and penne pollo to be main course.

just in case people thought i copy these to put in my post, i need to clarify that my xanga id is RAIN. please take note.saw this reddish apron while shopping at IKEA, lovin` it. you don't like it? well, it's your problem then, i like it very much` and i bought a loft bed ~~

Combi of Star Sign

say out loud: don't act like you know me well when you're not

i'm sick of it. please don't pretend or act like know and understand me well. i rarely show the real me unless you're the guy i love the most or the only person i trust the most. it's unfilial, but even my parents and family are still feeling curious and don't know me well. i'm childish and babyish to admit i dislike people seeing the failure part of my life, i only want to show my positive one, and i dislike people disagree me. so what? i never say i'm mature. that's what my image shows but it doesn't represent me. if to be put on table for people to analyze, i might be a really rebel bitch. i don't like to be outguess, i admire the mysteriousness and capricious. viewing and judging me using the study of zodiac? trust me, you will get the wrong info. 19 of January. formally is a Capricorn but some said it's Aquarius. however, the characteristic shows i'm not only a combination of Cap and Aqua but another few star sign.

Capricorn : stubborn, realistic, patience, responsible
Aquarius : adventurous, clumsy, calm when analyzing, willful and rebel, artistic
Pieces : romantic, squeamish, forgetful, happy
Aries : daring, risk taker, irritable, strongholds
Taurus : singing, eating, on hold
Gemini : different personalities
Cancer : good memory, respect and value love, possessive, home person
Leo : passion about love, outspoken, vivacious
Sagittarius : freedom

those who know me for years, can you see my characteristic in the star sign that's me? *laugh*

venus vs earth

say out loud: a human with planet venus' passport; or a venus with earth's citizenship

it's been a busy week for me. got a lot to catch up, with my life. first year Uni is not like what i thought, it's tough and more to independence studies. however, first semester subjects are not stuff i couldn't handle at all. macroeconomic is what I'm good at. accounting, catching up and doing good. business computing is easy, except for the database design task seems to be a hard one. and business statistic, had few classes but still don't have any idea about it. i think that's the only one I'll be facing major problem with. anyhow, life is busy. filling up my time with studies and sleeps. basically, that's my daily routine except Thursday to Sunday. Thursday and Friday, meeting Sam & Ken for lunch are like a habit. realizing i can actually stick with them almost everyday. sigh. i know, i need to get a life. but, you know me, i don't really mix around. a little anti-social, i know.

have been locked myself in my room these days, having abnormal thoughts and ridiculous dreams. people saying I'm way too creative. I've been wondering what will happen when an alien from planet Venus for example, came to earth and got married with a human from a planet we called earth. so alien from Venus has to migrate to earth, right? so, when they got children, what's their citizenship or nationality? i know it's a really ridiculous question. and my answer is, the child will be a human holding planet Venus' passport or a Venus with citizenship of earth. *swt* i know, not funny. or, do you get what I'm trying to say? ok, cut the crap.

i went south Kensington, again. maybe this will be my last time taking train to this place i once love it very much. not exactly because of the people living there but the whole environment. like the peaceful outlook although it might not look that peaceful. especially viewing the sunset from the station. it's my second time seeing sunset at this area. first time at the park near Kensington road, and second at the south Kensington station. it's beautiful isn't it? somehow, i manage to capture a few before i left. a place full of good memories back in last Christmas eve, i will not forget. was thinking to go couplecinos cafe for the last time, but it's too late and don't really remember the way. maybe, someday i will be going back again, walking along the road looking for the cafe. i missed their mega breakky and mocha freezacinos.

it's long way to go in my life, but where will this lead me to? i'm tired of walking all the way and end up realizing i never move along but stepping on the same spot.

a balustrade divided my view into two: one full of hope and wishes, and another one is peace and constant. i know it's not really contrast if to compare. but, which one will you pick? to go along with one that's full of challenges, hopes, wishes. or stick with the current one, peaceful and constant, might not have any changes in future. i know, it's really hard to pick one out of this two. dumb me.
took this when i look back. at the same time, but can you see a total different view? doesn't look like sunsetting, not at all. looking back. suddenly thought of, that's what life's about. ahead might be full of challenges and you might not know where it brings you to. looking back, you know what's there, it's your experience, it's your past, you can choose to look back and walk back, but you'll never know what's ahead.

6th Month - The END

say out loud: it's pain even with a broken heart

do i sound pessimistic? maybe a little. allow me to do so, i assure you i'll be alright soon. just needed sometimes to climb up from the deep cooling well and put my feet on the ground again. i'm always a strong girl. high self-esteem, confidence, happy-go-lucky. but they are the image i built up to protect myself.

i never thought i would fall in love with someone in such short period of time. different culture, different home country, different bred up style. what brought us together were the inner peace when we're together, the sensation of every words and sentences. however, it doesn't seem to go along. the guy i once thought the right one, the one i willing to open up and letting him having the key to my heart, end up stabbing me quietly.

tell me why is my heart bleeding and why do i still feel the pain when it's broken. yes, i'm beautifully broken into pieces. trying hard to collect all the tiny pieces of my broken heart, thousands of them, all around. i'm not mending it cause it will have scars and cracks on it anyway. i'm collecting them so i won't lost a piece. maybe someday, maybe some times, i'll try to fix it. rebuilt my fragile heart.

i never thought we'll end up in this way. sorry if i misunderstood but i feel being used. how am i not suppose to think like that when i'm completely ignore by someone, no messages, no calls, nothing right after we've got the offer letter done. what am i suppose to react? stunned. yes, i am. my heart is tearing off piece by piece every single minutes. yet, you done nothing to try to stop it. pushing me into hell after pulling me out of the dark room. our story ended. our love might be ended. what you left for me are memories and pain. however, i appreciate it. memories like bringing me to the play ground at yarra river, brought me to St. Kilda beach middle of the night, bringing me to places like richmond, williamstown beach side, footscray, high point... days i missed the most are those from 23rd of December 06 to 21st of January 07, the day i left. it seems to be a signal. the ending of foundation studies, shall be the end of our story. knowing you for nine months and being couple for six. i had enough. i feel thankful and satisfied. as the matter of fact, broken heart can still feel the pain. i chose to leave at this point, cause i know you'll never make the move. no point dragging you along when your heart is not with me.

p.s once and for all, i love you but it won't be forever, because you left me. i'll return to my life, being the rosy Sylvia. be the one, that locked her heart and throw the key far away.

Melbourne Motor show

woke up around 12 noon. after a night at lavish, its miracle i can wake up at this time when i slept at 5 in the morning. tiring. met Sam at the tram station and went clay pot king for brunch. after that, we went to the Melbourne Motor show. Lern told me it's not as good as Malaysia's, i don't know, never been to any of them. *laugh*

isn't it cool? guessing what car is't?

don't fall from the chair. it's PROTON ~!
trust me, i don't know where the hell this come from
we never see ONE back in Malaysia

my satria neon ~ hahahaha...

sexy black SL 55 AMG

sexy black SL 55 AMG

I don't know what's this but the color is outstanding

Lamborghini LP 640 Yellow Trendish

Lamborghini LP 640

Yes~ the Lexus IS250

Lamborghini in black is better

ohh~ my kawaii alpha romeo

that's reason why i like CL 63 AMG

it's because the side mirror are COOL ~

this is common and my friend has one

but this is sexy and i would want ONE

1st Lavish Night

its been months since i last club due to some reason and some people that i respect and care. however, i went clubbing at lavish with a few friends. promised to introduce ken to my ex-boyfriend, Loong. so we agreed to meet at the club. Loong's really a gentlemen and among all, he's the only guy that dare and willing to meet my family just to let our relationship grew. by coincidence, he met everyone. my father-side-family and my mother-side-family. even worst, my uncles and aunts relatives by marriage! people told me, when a guy willing to do that, to meet so many people, it proofs their determination and sincerity to be with you. i didn't listen and ended our relationship. that's bad. i know. however, we're friends now. just like me and Sam. especially being friends with Sam. that's what i never expect to happen. there's no way we could get back together, i know him well enough and he's now with my close mate, Felic. however, i enjoy being in friendship with him. at least, we know each other better this way. lavish night was fun. we went to Rohan's gathering before 12. met a new guy from ch eras by the name of Miro. nice guy, sweet. took a few shot, realizing I'm still good when it come to tequila shots. after that, James drove us to lavish at dockland. i have to admit that the atmosphere is good. compare to XXL at queens bridge, i like that more, but lavish is happening. we were in the ques for almost an hour to get in. Jacqueline was trying to help but i know she couldn't, the manager or someone up there scolding her for doing that. there are almost 17 of us! Laura and her boyfriend, Ben and her girlfriend, a guy from don't know where, few china friends of ken, ken, me, Sofia, Dennis and Christine. and i met Valarie and Cher Chi in the club. now i know, Melbourne ain't big. cause they were under Jacqueline guest list as well~! had Bacardi 151 shots before getting my feet into the dance floor. but end up dancing on the stage with the pole. now i understand how the pole dancer felt. it ain't easy dancing with the pole but we had great time up there.

Dennis Houy and Sylvia @ Rohan's gathering

Aeni~ we missed you. come back !! with Efy & Sofi

we're in a long ques but having extra time to do so

people ~ we aren't drunk. that's natural make up with few shots

ken and i were sweating like a pig dancing with the pole

Smith Street on 8th

I'm happy that I've chosen the right timetable. wouldn't have any class on Thursday and Friday, so i got plenty of time to do whatever i want to. however, the consequences are Monday classes packed, from 1030 to 1430 then 1730 to 2130. tiring, i know. Tuesday classes starting from 1030 to 1130 then 1230 to 1430 and the last one from 1530 to 1630. Wednesday classes are even more relaxing from 0930 to 1030 then 1030 to 1330. and that's it for the week! excited isn't it?

i think my blog readers are all gone cause i haven't been updating for quite sometimes. I'm sorry people. been going through a hard and tough and terrible time these days. will blog about it when I'm over, not when I'm suffering half way through. at the mean time, just read about my dull life in Melbourne with my people. *smile*

went smith street with Zoe. not much shopping but we had great time being like a tourist. can you imagine ms Zoe went all the way to smith street to get a pair of thongs? yes, she did it. and i got myself a pinkish high heels and a pink Adidas sweater. satisfied. we feel relaxing and having the feel of being a rich young mistress shopping when we stop by a juice shop to grab something. dead thirsty.

smith street : nice weather. nice sky.

on our way in the tram

my drink at the juice shop *melon head*
this puppy is seriously cocky. he doesn't really bother if i'm playing with him!!

weird things about me

well, i got tagged by athena as you see in my cbox. apparently, i'm quite free at the moment. so, i decided to take it. maybe some of you would like to have a laugh at it. it's about weird or i shall say abnormal FACTS about me.

ready to fall from the chair. ready to laugh till your tears drop. at the same time, be ready to accept the fact that i'm not just a NORMAL girl.

6 weird things you probably didn't know about me:
*please note that i do think it's abnormal, buzz off if you think it's alright*

1. have different personalities or i will call it attitude. the different me treats people differently. most often you'll meet the calm sylvia. seldom you'll meet the extreme sylvia. and almost impossible for you to meet the original sylvia. calm is what i always show and shall be my image in the public. being rational, calm, clever yet silly at times, clumsy but with leadership. the extreme sylvia, you'll see me being hyper active, being super emotional, speaks a lot, crazily laughing, doing daring and funny thing. and the original one, always remain mysterious and secretive.

2. although i might look smart or being really mature, but there are times i'm super babyish and clumsy. i can say or ask something silly whenever, wherever and to whoever. and witness by sam, i always ask weird questions.

3. i'm sick. not mentally of course. although i'm fat but do trust me that i have low-blood pressure, a little anemia and my blood circulate system is way slower than any normal people. imagine a normal slap and flap will cause me livid for at least three days. get the scenario? and believe me there are people trying to proof that by slapping my hand or leg. it's proven!

4. i can sleep everywhere at anytime. falling asleep fast and can really sleep if i want to. *wink* highest record should be twenty hours a day. don't try to wake me up during the weekends unless i ring you first. or else you'll see a panda-eyes monster yelling at you.

5. a lot of pillows on my bed. it's my culture. with a few favourite soft toy beside. i like my bed to be filled up by pillows. don't try to take it away or kick it aside, i seriously will be crazy. i simply like pillows covering me when i'm sleeping. it feels like i'm not alone.

6. i'm extemporaneous. can talk non stop even if i don't understand or don't know what's going on. and the weirdest part is, it normally hit the point and become the whole out of it. not trying to show off but it's true. however, i can become a mute in a sudden. see? big contrast.

Apparently, there’s other things as well.

If you leave a comment on this post:

1. I’ll respond with something random about you
2. I’ll challenge you to try something
3. I’ll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I’ll tell you something I like about you
5. I’ll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I’ll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I’ll ask you something I’ve always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours

~

Disclaimer: After I’ve tagged you, you cannot tag me back with the same meme. Period.

And who should I tag? Hmm… normal people would be fun. I can’t tag Athena Pin… So I’m going to tag K.H.Yun , Evvon, Claudia, Athena Leong and Shean.

Titanic

am so glad i visited Caleen's Xanga last night. browse through and i found something interesting. not to everyone but it is classic. *what the hell am i trying to say* what make it interesting and cool is, it is a 95 years old newspaper. i know, that probably can be categorized as an antique or a curio.

1st Year Uni

say out loud: happy birthday Felic & Yun ~~~

my first year in university finally started. was thinking to study bachelor of management, but end up picking bachelor of economic & finance. it's a combination. not sure if i can handle it well as Ade told me it's tough. however, we'll see how it goes and i might change courses half way through. anyhow, my first class turned out to be a mistake. went to the wrong session where the class suppose to be classes for working people. spend two hours having their business statistic class. at least i make full use of it, i suppose it is almost same. *wink*

went chapel street with sam and ken. as usual, they concentrating on their snooker skill and i sit aside doing my stuff. picked up my pencil and start drawing again. it's been quite some times since i last draw. used my nickname -devilmaycry- as background. it's outline of an angel and devil. can you feel their lonesome?

here's another one. i tried to show the contrast between both side. believing there's always an angel inside the devil and vice versa.